Saturday, August 13, 2011

#12

Allah (swt) doesn’t want us to despise ourselves. He wants us to feel regret in disobeying Him, to turn back to Him seeking His forgiveness, to have the determination not to do it again, and if other people were harmed then to return their rights. These are the conditions of tawbah as outlined by Imam Nawawi in Riyadh al-Saliheen. The initial feeling of regret and guilt is simply the key to the whole process. One should not get stuck staring at the key, but use it to unlock the door of seeking forgiveness, and open the door with the determination of not going back, in order to walk into the room of redemption, the room of getting closer to Allah (swt) by returning to Him. It is hope in His Mercy that drives this process and moves a person from simply focusing on the key of regret to actually using it to propel oneself closer to Allah (swt).

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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Someday, we'll know.

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you



spending these 10 days of ramadhan with you girls had never been sweeter.
thanks for the juadah iftar and many more.
i'll be missing you, but then, we have 3 more years to kill together insyaAllah.
let's make it sweeter, while we still have the time.





and sekarang kene kumpul tenaga for pembuatan rendang, kuih raya, muffins, cupcakes, potong rumput, bakar sampah etc....
semua dah tunggu dah.
i'm sure org malaysia dah rindu sangat dah ni :)



Sunday, August 7, 2011

#11


you are, what you eat.


'Mana ada lelaki melayu romantik macam tu'


Nowa,
Kakitangan Kajaan,
Putrajaya

TV3
Sri Pentas,
No 3, Persiaran Bandar Utama
Bandar Utama, 47800 Petaling Jaya

Tuan,
Per : Bantahan Terhadap Penyiaran Drama Bersiri Nora Elena

Adalah dengan hormatnya saya merujuk kepada perkara di atas dan drama bersiri Nora Elena adalah berkaitan.

2. Dimaklumkan, bahawa saya, Nowa dengan ini membantah penyiaran drama bersiri Nora Elena yang disiarkan setiap hari, jam 7 petang di saluran tuan. Antara sebab sebab pembantahan saya adalah seperti berikut.

i) Membuatkan jiwa isteri isteri terganggu.
Mana ada suami gitu sabo dalam dunia ini? Logik tak bila Nora tanya Seth, asal Seth tak penah dengan apa saja perbuatan Nora? Seth jawab, sebab Seth terlalu sayangkan Nora. Jadi kesimpulan, isteri-isteri mula curiga dengan suami mereka yang sepanjang masa marah marah. Ni laki aku sayang ke tak ni?

ii) Jiwa jiwa suami juga turut terganggu.
Ini kerana, apa bila tiba scene scene romantik dan tidak dapat diterima akal, seperti Nora terpeleot, Seth siap dukung bawak g sofa, tingkat bawah..(gila gagah..aritu aku nak branak, laki aku gendeng henbek aku, beg kain aku, pastu tunggu aku kat grill depan umah, aku la terkedek-kedek jalan sendiri..pastu pegang lengan aku je tau..bila suh dukung macam biasa drama atau filem buat, laki ckp, "ah gile mung, patoh pinggang!" Pastu sampai sepital, lari lari amik wilca..kalu dukung macam drama melayu kan bagus??)

Oh pasal part romantik tu, biasanya isteri akan menjeling kepada suami, disertai dengan kata kata sinis, "dedi mung ni masa dulu geletak nok ke mami, masa mami begetoh je belanar beli bunga, minyok wangi, cekelat bagai..leni doh dapat mami doh haghammmmmm!!! asal besday ke anniversary ke, pakai tektik, hadiah ai pada yu adalah sebuah cinta yang murni dan ikhlas"....itu je?? harharharharam!!

Paling koman, selepas jelingan tajam, cubitan kental di lemak perut pasti akan singgah di bahagian perut suami.

Jadi, sebagai lelaki melayu, suami, mereka juga merasa hangat dengan penyiaran drama bersiri ini.

Kebiasaan jugak, malam malam yang sepatutnya diisi dengan aktiviti sukan berair akan berlalu begitu saja, pabila sang isteri makan hati, lelaki melayu dalam drama lagi romantik dari laki sendiri. Saje saje wat merajuk, ingatkan si laki pujuk cam si Seth pujuk Nora, tapi tak tau laki sendiri penat, dah, amik kau, sampai ke pagi tak dapat apa apa..laki tak pujuk satu hal, laki horny dibuat bini gitu pun satu hal..Sian Johnny!

iii) Memberi harapan pelesu kepada gadis gadis yang belum menikah.
Apabila pengaruh Seth Tan mula menular, maka ramai gadis gadis mencari pasangan hidup yang romantik nak mampus macam Seth Tan. Selepas menonton siri itu juga, kajian secara rambang mendapati kebanyakan dahi gadis gadis lebam. Ini adalah berikutan dengan tabiat sebelum tido mereka yang gemar meletakkan belakang tapak tangan ke dahi sebelum tido sambil berangankan lelaki seromantik Seth Tan, walau sebenarnya, Non Ada lelaki MELAYU seromantik itu. Yang romantik cumalah, lelaki Bangladesh, lelaki Lombok, dan Shahrukh Khan sahaja.

iv) Pasangan-pasangan bercinta kerap bergaduh.
Sang aweks memaksa jejaka untuk kerap membelikan bunga. Sedangkan boipren tu keja Kerani je kat Kementerian Kewangan. Gaji pun RM1500 jek. Kau gile sekuntum bunga brape hengget?? Kalu nak 3 kuntum sebulan, takpe jugak. Ni nak 21 roses everiday??

Kau gile, ko nak mamoh kelopak bunga ke? Kau ingat kau cantik macam Nora Elena nak demand-demand? cess

v) Tak logik punya citer..
Brape lama kawen baru bole 'bersama'?? Ada ke lelaki sesabar Seth tu.. Ok, takde ke tunjuk scene Seth 'tumbuk sambal'?? eh, kalu betol ada lelaki tak penah sentuh isteri, kira mesti dia 'tumbuk sambal' kan? hahahha...takut awak sakit belakang konon..padahal ajak tido skali..mood cameron suda mari..eh, tetiba teringat Jay....kahkahkahakha

vi ) kari hangus, nasik hangit.
Duk sibuk berkejar dari dapur ke hall, pastu ke dapur semula, pastu part ehem ehem, part ada pelangi, dah teralit, tengok sambil berangan, jeling laki, dah lupa kari kat dapur..hangit gitu je..

vii) Mengganggu tumbesaran anak kecil.
Pabila seorang isteri, terpengaruh dengan apa yang dilihat di kaca telebisi, nak perli secara derek kepada laki sendiri takut kena penampo, jadi, anak kecil dijadikan medium untuk menyampaikan isi hati

"tengok tu Alya, dulu dedi mung semart gitu ah, nok g dating siap bukak pintu bagai sume? leni? mami terkedek kedek bawok barang dia hon siap siap doh"

"owoh Alya ork? napok ngat nipu..mana ada orang kawen doh romantik gitu ork??"

Kesian la budak kecit tu terkebil kebil tak tau ape mak dia bebelkan.

3. Sekian dimajukan untuk pertimbangan dan kelulusan pihak tuan. Dan semoga dengan ini, tiada lagi kekeliruan dan kecelaruan minda penonton penonton lagi. Mana ada lelaki romantik gitu dalam dunia..kalu ada pun sebelum kawen, lepas kawen, bagi setahun, atau dah dapat anak sorang, jadi kayu la semuanya..Jadi, dimohon pihak tuan agar tidak mempermainkan perasaan kami, dan memberi harapan pelesu kepada gadis gadis diluar sana.

Sekian,

"BERPIJAK DIDUNIA NYATA ADALAH TUNGGAK KEHIDUPAN BAHAGIA"

( NOWA)
Pengerusi,
Kelab Ibu-Ibu Menyusu Badan
Putrajaya

gelak guling2 skejap. macam2 la diorang ni. btw, penulis ni tak hantar kat tv3 pun. dia saja je buat lawak dekat blog dia. :P

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Thursday, August 4, 2011

#10

“I’m gonna find a cure for Alzheimer’s (…)Today I watched Meredith perform an emergency craniotomy by herslef. She was perfect. She’s got her mother’s talent. She’s got her mother’s looks, Richard. What if she has her mother’s disease? Ellis was young when it started. Every time Meredith forgets her keys or asks what day of the week it is, I… When that million dollars run out investors are gonna throw money my way for the same reason I’m gonna throw everything I have to this trial, because their dad has it, or their wife. Breakthroughs don’t happen because of the medicine, real breakthroughs happen because someone is scared to death to stop trying.”

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Nur

terus terang, saya tidak pernah melihat drama nur kasih the series. sudah lama saya tidak mengikuti mana-mana drama melayu atas alasan tiada masa. hakikatnya, saya tidak berselera menonton drama melayu kerana kurang daya tarikan di samping jalan ceritanya yang sangat cliche.

tetapi Nur Kasih the movie, ternyata berbeza. nampaknya industri tanah air telah akhirnya melalui revolusi yang saya barangkali tak pernah nak follow-up. Filem ini mengajar erti keredhaan, kasih sayang, pengorbanan, keikhlasan hati dan sejauh mana kepercayaan kita dgn ketentuan illahi melalui pengolahan jalan cerita yang cukup indah sekali.
abaikan la 'tahajjud cinta' di mana majoriti dari kalangan kita, kurang gemar dengan cara penyampaian drama bersiri tersebut.

ya, industri hiburan tanah air kita masih banyak lagi yang perlu diperbaiki. nisbah rancangan bermanfaat jauh ketinggalan dari rancangan2 tv yg penuh dgn hiburan semata-mata dan melalaikan.

malah rancangan2 yang kononnya mempunyai niat yang murni, gagal mencapai misi akibat dari kekurangan ilmu dalam sesetengah aspek yg ingin disampaikan.

Namun, sepanjang beberapa tahun saya jauh dari tanah air, apabila melihat negara sendiri dari kaca mata luar, mungkin negara kita mula sedar akan kepentingan perkara yang paling asas sekali, iaitu agama yang teguh amat penting dalam pembangunan sesebuah negara.

contohnya, perbankan islam, *menurut bapa saya sendiri* walaupun tidak 'islam' lagi secara menyeluruh, namun, kita sudah mula mengorak langkah kearahnya dgn mewujudkan sistem2 baru berasaskan islam yang cuba diterapkan ke dalam bank2 di seluruh negara. Untuk mengubah keseluruhan sistem sekaligus adalah mustahil, namun jika dapat diubah sedikit demi sedikit, maka insyaAllah, satu hari, perbankan islam akn menjadi islam yang benar2 islam.

maka, mungkin, teori yang sama dapat digunakan dalam industri hiburan di negara kita. mungkin segelintir drama atau filem yang ingin menerapkan ciri-ciri islamik bukanlah islam secara menyeluruh. contohnya, pelakon wanita yang hanya menutup aurat semata-mata kerana disuruh oleh tuan direktor, namun realitinya di luar lokasi penggambaraan, auratnya dibuka. ataupun berlakunya penyentuhan di antara lelaki dan wanita yang hanya bergelar suami isteri berpandukan skrip yang diberi padahal keduanya bukanlah suami isteri yang sah.

tetapi sesebuah drama ataupun filem malah apa-apa sekalipun, perlu dilihat secara menyeluruh. dan di dalam konteks ini, apa yang paling penting adalah mesej yang ingin disampaikan kepada masyarakat awam serta cara penyampaian mesej tersebut. adakah para penonton benar2 paham tentang intipati drama tersebut? atau ia hanya sekadar hiburan, untuk suka2, sekadar utk release tension atau menghabiskan masa yang terluang? dan sekiranya kita berjaya memperoleh pengajaran darinya, adakah kita mempraktikannya/menggunakannya atau kita akan lupakan sahaja?

namun, yang halal adalah jelas halalnya. dan yang haram, adalah jelas haramnya. kerana islam adalah agama yang cukup jelas. sama jelasnya dgn syurga dan neraka. yang hitam dan putihnya. tiada "grey area" dalam islam.

tetapi mungkin, kita sedang mengorak langkah ke arah islam yang menyeluruh. maka perlunya suara dan pertolongan yang berilmu dan arif, untuk membimbing mereka yang masih lagi kurang jelas tentang Islam yang sebenar.

pendapat saya, oleh kerana media massa membawa pengaruh yang amat besar sekali di dalam masyarakat kita, maka mereka2 yang bertanggungjawab menghasilkan karya perlu membuat penyelidikan yang rapi dan menyeluruh sebelum ditayangkan kepada masyarakat umum.

Kita pula sebagai warga umum juga perlu berfikiran lebih matang, dan perlu mengadakan penyelidikan sendiri untuk menapis apa sahaja yang media massa persembahkan kepada kita.
Janganlah kita terlalu cepat melabelkan sesuatu perkara. Mungkin sesuatu yang tampak baik, ada agenda lain yang tersembunyi. Mungkin sesuatu yang tampak gelap, ada sinar di sebaliknya.

tiba masanya untuk kita berhenti bersikap tidak-mahu-ambil-tahu, atau acuh tak acuh tentang apa sahaja isu yang berlaku di sekeliling kita sama ada isu2 dalam negara mahupun luar negara.

Ramadhan ke-21 dalam hidup saya akan tiba tidak lama lagi. Selamat menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Semoga kita menggunakan peluang Ramadhan kali ini dgn sebaiknya. InsyaAllah.

p/s: terima kasih pada seseorg itu kerana recommend filem Nur Kasih :) ya, memang tak dapat dinafikan, ceritanya sangat sedih. :(


Friday, July 29, 2011

#9

When we’re feeling empty and at our weakest, it’s hard to give love. Even to God. It’s then that what we need most is to fill ourselves with something else: His love for us.

That’s why in loving Allah, really, the love is a one of the greatest rewards.


:)



#8


All i did was read it from books. if only i have all the money in the world. *sigh*
i want an adventure. a big one!
*capai another book from the bookshelf*


Monday, July 25, 2011

tangled; no more :)

Dear tangled,
now that i'm tangled-free from any exam or such, i'll be watching you,,,,,,



again,


and again,


and again. :)



because i'm so loving you :P





Saturday, July 16, 2011

#7

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Dan sungguh, yang kemudian itu lebih baik bagimu dari yang permulaan.


Dan sungguh, kelak Tuhanmu pasti memberikan karunia-Nya kepadamu, sehingga engkau menjadi puas

Ad- Dhuha, ayat 4&5

Surah yang menjadi bukti kasih sayang Allah terhadap Rasulullah tatkala baginda sangat sedih kerana kaum Quraisy mengutuk baginda ketika penurunan wahyu baginda terhenti buat seketika. Mereka mengatakan, Allah sudah melupakan baginda.

Tiada yang dapat memujuk hati ini, selain daripada meneliti setiap kalimah Allah.

Jazakumullah khairan kepada mereka yang berkongsi tadabbur surah ini. :)





Wednesday, July 13, 2011

kelapa sawit.

bukak message fb. tiba-tiba someone send me a message:

":("

ok, risau. sgt.

terus call, and she said.
"takde pape pon. saje je. boring. Kakhur cepat balik malaysia. Jemput Najah from ladang kelapa sawit ni".

"kenapa plak ni? boring sgt ke kmb?" I said

then she replied;
"ala. semua org mcm robot"

haha. reminds me when i first masuk mrsm muar. yup. it was like hostel all over again. and seriously, who likes routine life. definitely not me.

Hang in there Najah, baru 3 minggu duduk sana. You'll get used to it lama2. Once you find something interesting to do , you'll be enjoying your stay there. well, at least kmb is not that boring. haha. Oh, and happy doing all the assignments. 2 years is not that long kannn. :P Besides, you have lots of fun fun friends over there kan.

p/s: don't worry, once i'm home we'll have some fun insyaAllah.



naughty girl growing up so fastt.
another muslimah doctor is in the making, InsyaAllah :)


detoxification and always summertime.

500mg paracetamol + 65 mg kafein.

duh. caffeine. that explains the vomitting pagi exam, and right before exam. DUH!!

NO CAFFEINE, NO CAFFEINE, NO CAFFEINE.

arrggh, the urge, the temptation.

jihad paling besar adalah jihad melawan diri sendiri (nafsu).

p/s: approximately 3 months w/out caffeine. *ok, tipu. last month costa coffee kan* fighting HUR!

oh, ni Always Summertime. just love this song. hrmm...




It's always summertime
In my mind
Until I remember
Life can't be revised




Monday, July 11, 2011

#6

If Cinderella's shoe fits perfectly, then why did it fall off?


Saturday, July 9, 2011

The best feeling in the world is to be millions of miles away and still be able to picture your eyes.

I MISS....

1. solat jemaah dgn mama dgn abah.
2. buka puasa dgn family.
3. tarawih sama2 dgn makcik2.
4. gurau2 dgn the girls.
5. makan timun abah tanam
6. pengat durian mama.
7. buat kerepek pisang
8. buat cupcakes.
9. potong rumput *LOL*
10. lepak kat kebun, kolam ikan.

kampung girl, wants her kampung. and all she has to do is study extra hard, then she'll get her rewards insyaAllah :)

"don't you buat that muka hur. mama tau apa ekspresi muka hur sekarang. ingt mama tak nampak."
*haha. you really know me well mama. i cant hide it walaupun through phone :)*


the sungai tepi abah's kebun. the place where we lepak. :) peaceful mashaAllah


Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Decide with confidence- Hur.

LOL, you make feel all better. really know how to lift up my self esteem, youuu.

Hur is under control

Hur is an investment in good appearance.

ok. dah cukup. :P



Monday, June 27, 2011

we are all sinners.

a reminder to myself, and all.

charity begins at home. don't depend on masjid to do all the job that we should be doing. talk about changing the ummah. start in our own home first. wallahualam.





Oh you who believe save yourselves and your families from a fire!
-surah at-tahrim 66:6-

stop this deadly epidemic in our society, people.


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

if tomorrow never comes.

" insecure. that's how i felt for the past 48 hours. it's like you dont feel safe at all. you become suspicious of everything and everyone seems to be more like a foe than a friend to you. your senses become sensitive. you learn to trust your instinct. you depend on those who are just totally different from you but all you have in common is this same feeling; insecurity "

" suddenly you talk with those you'd never talked to. you sleep with those you'd never slept with. you smile to almost everyone. those who you'd never thought will care for you, do care after all "

this is what i'd experienced a few months ago. these lines are from my diary which i wrote at that time 30/1/2011. of course, i cant just wrote everything in my diary here, for sure. but just now, as i was lepaking with irna, as we talked about how can this semester seems to be very short. and then we realized, what happened a few months ago. an experience, which to me was a bit traumatic. but I'd learned so much from it. so much. as we reminisce, all this feelings come back to me. and to irna too, for sure. :P

" last night, i didnt sleep. i woke up almost every hour just to check whether farhanah and in are breathing. i heard so many things. gunshots, people screaming and shouting, babies crying. and at all time, i cant help but thinking of ways of escaping in case someone breaks in our house. it was absurd. so many strategies were formed in my brain. as if you have so many things gushing into your mind all at once. suddenly, nothing else matters. . all you care is how to make it through the night. no further plans beyond that"

yes. we thought of nothing else. we just want to live. we just hope and pray that we can get out of the house, and go to another safer place. where there is lots of people. malaysian people. our people.

i thought of nothing else. suddenly i dont care what my future have for me. i dont care whether i'll become a doctor or not. i dont care if i will ever get married or not. i dont care what my results will turn out to be *sebab masa tu baru je habis exam* my dreams, my plans, whatever, i just dont care anymore. i just dont like being in this situation. i just want to get out of this situation. i just hope that all of us will be breathing tomorrow. that i will still have the opportunity to become a better person. oh allah, i promise i'll be better. because i'm just not ready to die yet. i dont think i've been a good muslim all these 20 years of my life. please. if only i can see my parents' faces one last time. i'm longing for them. i've been a very bad daughter indeed. i still need to do a lot of things for them. and to my sisters, i'm the worst eldest sister ever. so many times, i didnt show them my best example. and to my friends. yes, there are times that i do them wrong. if you just give me this second chance.

and i thought i was the only one who felt that way that night. turned out to be irna too, felt the same thing. and i'm sure, all of us who had experienced "the darkest night of egypt"- the time when all the banduans were running freely out in the streets, felt the same way, as i did.

and yet, when malaysia's government came to bring us back home. when we were safely back in our comfy home back in malaysia. when mubarak finally stepped down. when everything turns right again. when we started our studies again here, peacefully. maybe, these few months, just maybe, maybe we forget about things that happened that night. i know, i did forget some of the details. if irna and i didnt lepak at sun steffano after icdl, most probably, i will keep on forgetting the thoughts that i have that night. that maybe Allah is giving me a second chance. most probably, Allah is giving us all a second chance. just like how Allah gives egypt her second chance.

so yes, if, just let's say, what if tomorrow never comes, what are we plan to do?




Tuesday, June 14, 2011

dedicated to the man of my life.

when i was a little girl, i was not like the other kids. i'm not a fan of barbie doll. i dont play video games. * that's the reason why my ipod has no games in it* i dont play sports. *that's why i'm montel indeed* i do have some friends. but we usually talk more than we play. and at that time, i was a bit anti-social.

my childhood was filled with educational stuff. when i first got number 1 in my class, abah bought me 4 books of science thingy *i dont quite remember* i was seven. i dont actually know the stuff, but i just like to look at the pictures. and just within few days, i thought, hey, i can understand this. he also bought me kisah nabi-nabi. which i also finished reading it by a few days. and yes, now i think i need to read it again, despite of the numerous medical books that i have to read.

my house was filled with books. abah and mama have lots and lots of encyclopedia. and yes, i was seven, and i already read about cleopatra, and earthquake, and picasso and alexander the great. at that time, i was amazed by the pyramids *funny how i am so close with pyramid now, but still dont have the opportunity to go there* yes, i dare say, i was a bookworm.

since that day on, i read most of the books in my house. abah and mama is not a doctor, but yes we do have some health and medical books at that time. that was the time that i believe in magic. that books are fill with wonders.

abah realized my fondness towards books. therefore, if he wants to buy me any present, it will be a book. he also tries to encourage all my sisters to read books. but not all of us have the same interest. hehe.

abah is a very educational father indeed. i remember the times when we went for a holiday. he always asks us to bring a note book. we usually go to the museums, and planetariums. there was one time we went to the tea plantation, and he asked us to take notes of it. for he will then wanted us to tell him back, how tea was made.

now abah, turning 57. unemployed. and still educate himself and his daughters, as well as his wife. i watch him most of the nights, reading different books, before he goes to sleep. now that most of her daughters are taking medicine, i think he knows more about medicine more than we do. :)

so here it goes, happy birthday abah. alhamdulillah, allah sends me a father like you. a man who used to be so macho *zaman bujang2 dulu* and still is macho but turning into a soft hearted, loving and caring man. sebab ada 4 girls and a very lembut wife. :P sorry if we, girls sometimes give you headache with our shopping obsession, and fondness to chit chat. i do hope your vege garden turns right insyaAllah. you are the only man in my life. *well at least for now* and even if there is another man in my life one day insyaAllah, you will always have a special place in my heart. :)


now that you are retired, i realized that i'm turning old. that now, it is my responsible to take care of you and mama. not the other way round. i'm sorry for growing up so slow. i'm so sorry for not graduating yet. but i'm half way now, insyaAllah. and in another few years, it will be our time *your daughters* to work so hard. earning paychecks and stuff. and all you and mama have to do, is focus on your ibadah, and honeymoon for the rest of your lives. oh and yes, play with your grandkids for sure. and i'll try hard to give you lots and lots of grandsons insyaAllah. :P


p/s: no hidden message from this above picture. it's just that i do believe, a boy will change into a true man, when he finally becomes a father. just like our fathers. :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

#4

this is me; balik dari kuliyah everyday.




then, i enter into this strange, beautiful world; dreamland.