goodbye.

bye bye pink pink.

i'll be missing you like mad.

i know she'll take good care of you.

T_T

selamat hari raya aidilfitri. :)

after lots of hardworks doing chores and kuih raya, watsoever,,,,raya is finally here.

and the best part is, i can celebrate it with family and friends right here, in Malaysia.
Alhamdulillah

and maaf zahir dan batin.


P/s: jemput lah dtg umah or kampung. :)

wow!

tr baca post kat blog kader. respect glew org arab ni. haihh. rndu la plak kn.

http://cendology.blogspot.com/2009/09/terawih-tahap-maksimas.html?showComment=1253029211872#c6964790624737032478

anyway, tnjuk the pictures kat abah.

abah ckp;

"ala, kat malaysia ni pon penuh jugak smpi sejuta orang bila dah malam 7 liku ni"

and i was like;

"betul ke bah? wah hebat gak malaysia ni"

pstu abah ckp;

"ye lah. kat jalan tunku abdul rahman tu mmg dkat nk sejuta owg gak yg shopping"




hampeh.

cam perli pon ade gak. :P

the littlest things in life.

http://fiveonesix07.blogspot.com/2008/12/friend-in-need-is-friend-indeed.html

and yes.
i'm grateful.
Alhamdulillah.

:)

p/s: len kali klu nk wat penipuan jgn call ak time ak mamai. sbb sumpah ak x paham. (oops, ak ckp sumpah. mind ur language hur :P)

jon and kate plus 8

who are they?
CELEBRITIES.

they are one big family. jon is a korean american. married to kate. having twins when they were 23 and sextuplets at the age of 27. i repeat SEXTUPLETS. as in 6 babies. same age. same time.

diowg ni ade reality tv show kat astro travel home and living channel. since i'm now a temporary housewife, sambil2 buat kuih raya tu, trpaksa la tgk rncangan tv mama kn. it's mama's favourite tv show. because the sextuplets are so cute and adorable. basically the show is about how this couple raise their kids. having 8 kids at one go is not an easy job at all.

since i am so outdated. this show dah dtayangkn lama dah. sblum g egypt lagi. tp skng bru tau. i really respect this couple. ye la. they are very young, and somehow, they can manage all their kids. the couple is not working btw. they depend on the money they got from the reality tv show.
so, there i was respect la konon. like, wah, hebat la dyowg ni. orang laen anak sowg pon susah nk jaga. ni kan owg yg ad 8 owg anak. da lah tu ad 6 kembar plak tu. cmne la agknye dy tukar lampin mse diowg baby dulu.

but then, suddenly mama told me just now that jon and kate divorced already. and i was like, "What?"
"dah cerai dah"

mama ckp, they probably stressed out. they were very tired. with the kids and all. and so, ble da cmtu, mcm2 problem timbul la kn.

Tiba-tiba, hilang plak respect tu. imagine, diowg dah cerai. x kesa la psl diowg kan. but how about their kids? they are victims for sure. and i thought they are the happiest family.
After all they'd been through, raising the kids and all, going through thick and thin together, suddenly they want to divorce. separate. as in, i go my way, u do the same.

Maybe it's not their fault. Maybe they are not meant for each other. Maybe it's fated. They did try to work it out. But i guess, not everything can go according to our plan.

i still like the tv show anyway. it just shows that having a family is seriously, definitely is not as easy as ABC. you need to work together, understand and tolerate , accepting each other's flaws and definitely trust each other. and yes, maybe mula2 kawen, sume cam bahagia je. but then, when you have kids, and lots of problems datang, x kre la financially ke, ataupun ada kehadiran orang ketiga, then suddenly, kasih sayang tu dah mula teruji. and of course, the only thing that can keep the love strong is our iman. and kesabaran for sure.

p/s: credits to our parents yg masih lagi kekal perkahwinan mereka smpi ke anak cucu insyaAllah. Dan juge kpada sesiapa yg anak ramai tu. mmg salute la. Both of my grandmothers are super women kott. and juga kepada parents in. suka sgt bila in cerita psl adik bradik dy yg 9 owg tu. haihh, knape anak mama 4 owg je... :P

who are we going to trust?

talking about changing the nation, changing the WORLD.
better to change ourselves first, and the ones we love.

p/s: jgn terlalu percaya kt org. get to know them 1st, before going serious with them.

Semoga Semuanya Selamat. InsyaAllah.

Bukak facebook tadi, tiba-tiba terpandang pada updates section mate, Ismah Mansurah.

Rupa-rupanya ayah dia masuk ICU. Ada blood clot kalau tak silap. Ammar ada inform kat ym semua orang.

Memang Allah nak duga Ismah and family pada bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ni. Mesti ada hikmah di sebalik setiap apa yang terjadi. believe in dat 110%. Bertambah lah pahala Ismah sekeluarga. InsyaAllah.

Bila tengok gambar yang Ismah upload tu. Rasa sebak pon ada. (emo dah datang). Sangat memahami apa yang dia rasa sekarang. Melihat ayah kita, tunggak keluarga, yang sebelum ni sihat, tegap, dan sasa, menjalankan tanggungjawab sebagai ketua keluarga tanpa mengeluh. Sekarang ni terlantar tidak bermaya atas katil.

Macam abah dulu, masa mula-mula sampai ke Malysia, abah dah kat hospital. Abah's condition was not as serious as Ismah's dad. Masa tu pon da risau. Ini kan Ismah. Allah je la tahu apa yang dia lalui.

It's a reminder to everyone sebenarnya. Including myself of course. Berapa lama je parents kita akan hidup sebenarnya. Harap-harap cukup lama la untuk diorang sempat tengok anak cucu cicit. InsyaAllah. Tapi tu tidak pasti semestinya. Yang muda, sihat walafiat pon boleh meninggal tiba-tiba. Ni kan parents kita yang dah meningkat umurnya. Ajal dan maut tu pon bila2 boleh datang jemput kita. Sebab tu la, kita kena hargai mereka sementara diowg ada. jangan kita menyesal pada waktu yg akn dtg.

Kita pon dah tak de banyak masa da. Sekarang ni da bulan 9. bulan 10 da kene balik egypt. Ada 1 bulan je lagi. Bagi yang repeat paper, lagi x byk masa. Lepas raya, terus dah kene balik da. Spend the remaining days wisely with the ones we really love. Let them know, that we really, really, really love them.

Walaupun kadang-kadang ada sdikit salah paham, terjerit-jerit ke, kene bebel ke.
Atau kadang-kadang diowg sedikit memaksa, x bagi permission for this and that.
And in some circumtances, diowg 'ter'angkat tangan kat kita. since that's the only way to make us understand kott.

They are parents. These are what they do.

Memang la, kadang2 diowg salah. Tapi most of the time they are right.
And so what if most of the time diowg salah.
They are not perfect, And so are we.

remember one thing. We are so lucky to still have them in our lives. There are lots of our friends, yg dah xde da parents.

Since result pon dah kuar, tahniah kepada sesiapa yang result dia cemerlang. I'm so happy for u guys and girls. You guys did a good job well done.

And to those yang kene balik awal, don't worry, u're not a failure. Allah memang nak uji masa bulan ramadhan ni. nak tengok iman kita kuat ke tak menghadapinya. nak test kita ni menerima dgn baik atau sebaliknya. Sedih xpe, it's normal la. xkan nak gembira plak kan. but then, life has to go on.

kite jatuh, kita bangun balik. kita sambung lari. kalau jatuh lagi, bangun lagi, kita sambung lari lagi. yang kita takut orang yang jatuh pastu dah x nak bangun balik. yes. never give up. as long as we don't give up, InsyaAllah, we will find a way to reach our destination somehow. To be GREAT muslim doctors. Amin.

Macam quote yang Farhana Zakaria pernah bagi masa gala night ksp aritu " Yakin dgn diri sendiri, Yakin dgn kasih sayang Ilahi" It really keeps me going. Thanks Farhana. Or should i say thanks Farhanas. since Farhana Mohammad juga banyak menolong. walaupun result ku bukan lah untuk dibanggakan, tapi alhamdulillah. Kene work hard lagi.

Kepada Ismah dan keluarga, semoga tabah menghadapi dugaan ni. Doakan yang terbaik. Hanya Allah je yg dpat tolong masa ni. Amin

G for Gedik- part 2.

confession dari in:

Syafinaz: gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Hur:haha
Hur: best kaannnn
Hur: bpk gedik
Hur: tp cumwel
Syafinaz: yup
Syafinaz: haha
Syafinaz: btol2
Syafinaz: aku ske
Syafinaz: aku pn nk jd gedik cmtu ah
Syafinaz: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

in secara rasminya dah jadi gay. haha.

ini balasan sbb clash ngn ak.
dan balasan sebab ugut ak ngan diari tercinta ak.

lalalala.. :P

G for Gedik

Yup. They are sure gedik.

and comel
and cheeky
and sweet
and sexi too

and somehow, i started to love them.

betul la owg cakap, kalau benci, lama-lama suka.

haihh, sume pengaruh nad ngn iez.
i hate u guys.

huhuhu

Girl's Generation-Gee

they have sweet lyrics tooo..

and i know, in akan benci gile dgn pompoan2 gedik cmni. ingt in, kalau benci, lama-lama suka :)

older

Waited all my life for this day to come
I feel like letting go
Life goes on
Wasting no more time
So much to be done
Everything works out
So they say
Over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
Yeah, yeah

yup2. turning 19 is not that easy. well, i'm happy for sure, except when it comes to the part that i'm getting older.

getting older = bigger responsibilities = more matured = so NOT like me. haha
haihh,, got to get used to it. sooner or later.

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes.. really REALLY appreciate.
from sms-es, ym-s to fb-s, phone calls, and even through blogs' posts. You guys are REALLY
GREAT.
big hugs for everyone :)

and yes, the posts really made my day. i can't help smiling all day loonnngg..


Pakcik BUBU

Makcik ZAMZAM

Datin TYRA

Mama NIS (manis pon buleh juge)

Pakcik LOSER


see, siap promote lagi blog kowg :P

Here before my eyes
Many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance
What lies down the road
Feeling so confused
Turned around
On and on
On and on
Yeah, yeah'

my b'day wishes? bak kata owg putih.. semua sudah tercapai. ok. that's a lie. masih lagi ada 3 perkara.

A good muslimah doctor, anak yang solehah, and of course,,,surirumah tangga yg berjaya. :P

for the time being, i'm happy to love and being loved :)

p/s: to all my MOKS. thanks for mokmok. haha. nak yg paling gemuk dan berbulu, but i guess u guys tak cukup budget. haha. xpe la. at least leh masuk dlm cargo nanti. :P

tak terkawal

Pagi tadi, di stesen bas Ipoh.
Saya dan In sedang membeli tiket bas ke Kuala Lumpur.

Saya: Pakcik, saya nak 2 tiket ke KL

Pakcik: Ok. Semuanya RM34

Saya: Haaaa?????!!!!! Rm34??? (Dgn nada terkejut)

Pakcik: (Dengan nada lagi terkejut) Asl terkejut? Betul la pakcik kata

Saya: Lorr.. RM 34 tok 2 tiket ke..hihihi.. (da malu da)

Pakcik: Awak nanti dgn laki awak jgn buat macamtu. Buat orang terkejut je

Saya: Saya akan cuba yang terbaik pakcik. (sgt semangat)

Konklusinya, emo saya perlu dikurangkan untuk masa hadapan yang lebih cerah. Lalalala...

P/s: Terima kasih kepada mereka2 yang terlibat sepanjang saya berada di Kuantan dan Ipoh. Anda semua memang dari kalangan orang2 yang baik2 belaka. Semoga Allah memberkati kamu semua. Amin. :)

i luf u lardee.

this is lardee and ickle

Iez: haha
Iez: awk la
Iez: awk ickle
Iez: kte lardee
Iez: =P
Hur: sama jeee
Hur: ap beza dy?
Iez: sorg gemuk skit
Iez: sorg lg kurus
Hur: spe gemuk?
Hur: awk?
Iez: yg kecik skit tu ickle
Iez: lardee
Iez: aah
Iez: tp lardee comelllllllll!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDD
Hur: so, kte ickle laa
Iez: yeah LAWL
Hur: haha
Hur: krenye awk gemuk la
Iez: em bukan
Iez: point penting disini ialah "comel"
Iez: haha
Hur: itulah yg paling penting sebenarnye
Hur: ngee~
Iez: lol
Iez: kdg2 yg kte igt penting tu lah yg tk penting
Iez: =P
Hur: salah sama sekali
Hur: ape-apepon
Hur: awk tatap gemuk
Hur: nuthing can chnge that fact :)

i'm coming to you gemuk. see yaaah...

p/s: W*F*f*k :P

18

current colour: pink
date: 18 th August 2009
status: can't wait.

:)

:(

why her?
why her?
of all the people in this world,
why her?
ya allah,
she's the nicest girl ever.
why is this happening to her.
ya allah,
tolonglah ya allah,
tolonglah pulihkan keadaan ini kembali.
she really don't deserve this.
mungkin ini satu dugaan, tapi ya Allah,
tolonglah hamba mu yang lemah ni.

i can't bear seeing her like this.
i really can't.
T-T

mask

just the other day, mama was peeking at poh kong's window's display.. and there's this salesgirl came to her.

" makcik, makcik x nk beli emas baru utk raya?"

and mama told her..

"makcik da x pki emas sgt da"

abah's answer,

"owg sekarang da x pki mas da, owg pakai mask."

N.B: mas = emas

yup. h1n1 everyone. and the number of death is increasing day by day.
but then again, things happen for reason aite.
i 100% agree on that one.
you see, due to h1n1 thingy, all my sisters are home.
cool huh.

after 11 months, all of us are reunited again.
alhamdulillah.

though romy is now back in penang, and the next time i can see her is during raya.
it's ok, time flies fast ey.
oh well.
p/s: mr h1n1, please go away. and never come back.

black or white

And I Told About Equality
An It's True Either
You're Wrong Or You're Right
But, If You're Thinkin' About My Baby
It Don't Matter
If You're Black Or White

heard this song kat kedai mamak td. haha.. luf mj so much. r.i.p.

it's great to be home.. huhu..
sgt sronok.
sgt.

though at times, i kinda of missing egypt.
but hey, i'm loving mlysia man...haha.

btw, thnks to abu, akmal, afiq areqa for visiting abah kat hospital aritu.
really appreciate it.
sempat jln kt ts je,
mkn kat penang village, and watch a dumb movie together.
the land of lost. haha. kelakar gak la.

cilok pictures from afiq's bl0g.

thnks a lot guyss..
my parents think i have the nicest friends ever.
and yes, that's a fact.

curtain falls

and that's the end of our 1st year.
let's wait for the second one.
:)

seribu tahun.

yup. imran ajmain. i used to hate this song soo much.
i don't have any reason for that.
maybe because it sounds like a hopeless love song.
promises that no one can kept.
a false hope.

but someone i love, loves this song.
and when she loves it, i started to love it too..

kan nyza kn?
lagu feveret ko kn?
di saat semua orang da balik rumah,
da bebas dari spm,
kita still ag dok kat maktab tu.
yup. our last paper. seni reka.
and yes, those last moments could be the best ones.

ingt x, sbb semua owg da balik,
maktab tu jd kita yg punya.
tiap2 ari mandi swimming pool.
kuar maen bowling kt bndar muar tu.
tgk wayang.
yg plg best, nangis2 dpan tv tgk drama kat tv3.
yup, just both of us at that tyme.
sbb aina balik jap tyme tu..

and yes, kita x rapat dari dlu,
but a short quality time makes a huge different,
it's like i've known u since forever.

i love you nyza,
it's not because you wrote a post for me.
http://sayanyza.blogspot.com/2009/07/entry-3-anak-anak-art.html
it's because i want to love you.
and no one can take that away for me.

kelas seni reka telah menemukan kita.
and alhamdulillah, all of us got a1 for the arts paper ( klu x dpt x tau la)
haihh,,teringt la kat ckgu noer yg comel lote. :)

p/s: klu ak g muar, and if ko ad kat batu pahat, let me know. nak sgt jmpe ko. :)

till we meet again.

gagak mati

Disebabkan PPSMI telah dimansuhkan.
(tiada kaitan antara hidup dan yang mati)

Dia nampak gagak mati,
Dalam longkang,
Tepi pejabat pos.

Dia nampak lelaki tua,
Susah tarik nafas,
Dan bayi sesak nafas,
Dalam klinik yang sesak pada waktu pagi.
Bumi ini sangat kaya,
Kenapa kita kena menderita

Saya nak udara bersih,
Untuk cucu-cucu, cicit-cicit, oneng-oneng saya,
Saya nak orang-orang yang bodoh,
Tinggalkan hutan-hutan keseorangan,

Saya nak pokok-pokok tumbuh meliar,
Sungai berjoging dan berlari bebas,
Dan bumi diselaputi rumput (lalang pun boleh)
Biarlah AHLI-AHLI POLITIK fikir bagaimana,
Bagaimana ye,
Kita ye,
Dimana ye,
Boleh hidup bermaruah,
Kini dan Selamanya


kenapa dimansuhkan?
siapa yang salah?
betul ke tindakan ini?

saya tiada jawapan bagi soalan tersebut.

Tetapi, saya sangat bersyukur,
sangat-sangat bersyukur,
kerana dilahirkan dalam batch 1990,
batch pertama PPMSI,
kerana PPMSI, adalah salah satu sebab bagaimana saya boleh meraih tempat di universiti lebih-lebih lagi dalam bidang perubatan.
Alhamdulillah.

rainbow tree.

As we grow up,
we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much,
and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

credits to the one and only,
i will always love you.
:)