my top 10 list.

bagaimana menenangkan hatiku yang lara..

9. go for a lonnnnnnnnnnggggg walk outside...
8. staring at the deep blue sea.
7. lepak kat rooftop..when there's no else there.
6. a great novel.
5. gelak ketawa rakan-rakan
4. ice-cream+chocolate+caramel dan yg sewaktu dgnnya..
3. heart breaking songs,, in severe cases,, i sing my heart out.
2. diary.
1. mama's pep talk.

yup. and nothing works effectively like number 1.

right after i told her my result (credits to the-so-called yahoo messenger),
her response is quite unbelievable,,,

Mama: x gi celebrate ke

and i was like...

Hur Azmi : clbrate ???
Hur Azmi : ma,, ap yg nk d clebrate

i told her that i was terok,,, sgt terok.
lower than average.
at the bottom kot.
and yet,,

Mama: kan semua b 1 c tu okay lah
Mama: tak pe insyaalh ade room for improvement
Mama: wey semua nanti nak maintain parah tau
Mama: long distance runer mane pecut awal2.nanti habis tamina

and i was like,,,

Hur Azmi: i guess you're right

Mama: i know i am right
Mama: jadi hur ambil iktibar camne cara nak study lagi efficient
Mama: ma2 tanya hur disappointed ngan results hur ke

haihh..sape la yg x...owg yg dapat byk a pon leh kecewa..

Hur Azmi: hur x nk fail je
Hur Azmi: alhamdulillah hur x fail

Mama: so the next exams jngn main2 buat btol2,insyaallah klu x nak disappointed agi

deep down,,,i am quite disappointed.very.but then,, padan ngn muka ak..maen2 ag...hahaha...
guess i know better now..hope so.

thank you.
each word soothes me,,like no other.
and you know i will never express my disappointment to someone else.
and i
will work + try harder.
insyaallah.

and mama is definitely right. long runner x pecut awal2. nanti abis stamina. but in my case, i'm always slow..klu jog pon mmg kat belakang..stamina mmg sikit,,

yes, i am slow,
but i'll never stop.
never.