White Winter

Kang Jun Sang atau Lee Min Hyuk.
Dua orang yang berbeza personaliti.
Tapi kalau sayang, tetap sayang juga.
Tak kisah macam mana pun personalitinya.
Tak kisah berubah macam mana pun.

Lama pula tak tulis blog. Hihihi.
Teringat angin lembut sepoi-sepoi bahasa Nami Island plak.
Hrmmm..


P/s: Kan Hur dah cakap, takde orang yg tengok cerita Winter Sonata tak nangis. hehehe. At one point, dia mesti touch at least a slight of your emotion. Especially dengan lagu2 instrumental sentimental dia :P

Mother Of Books

Ohhhh Yessss... The moment when Beast showed the library to Belle, I was literally gasping for air. The view was breathless. Big Time!

I seldom berangan of my dream house. But when i do, i'm not really picky about it. Just a small simple cozy house, with lotsa lotssssaaa lotsaaaa of books in it. My house should be drowned in books. I'll be swimming in it. I could literally dive in it. Submerged in it. Ya ya, I've made my point.

The reading room should be the biggest space in the whole household.

 Of course, our bedroom should have at least this much of books right.

Oh, and this should be our TV corner, which the TV will not be much in use for sure. I'll have my children be so drawn in reading books that they wouldn't bother to even watch any TV.  The TV would be much like a decor only.

If we somehow have very small house, then, not having a bookshelf is no problem at all. There is always enough spaces for books. Even if this means attaching them to the walls.

 Oh, and when the walls are already fully occupied, we always have the yard to place some of the bookshelves.

I kinda like this antique design reading room.

I guess, when we have tons of books, we need to be really organised. Maybe it should be colour coded. 

Yes, our children would want to sleep on the bookshelf. They will love books that much! :p

Alright, let's say if we do really have tiny little house, this would suffice.

Bulan Ramadhan, doa mustajab kan? So I'll be praying harddd for this one :)

Dear Ramadhan #2

2nd Ramadhan, 3rd Taraweeh.
Wara' Kuliyah Handasah
Juzu' 3- Surah Ali-Imran, (Surah ke-3)

Some of the ayahs which the Imam repeated a few times, today.

Diperhiaskan bagi manusia kesukaan kepada barang yang diingini, (yaitu) dari hal perempuan dan anak laki-­laki, dan berpikul-pikul emas dan perak, dan kuda kenderaan yang diasuh, dan binatang-binatang ternak dan sawah-ladang. Yang demikian itulah perhiasan hidup di dunia. Namun di sisi Allah ada (lagi) sebaik tempat kembali.

Beautified for people is the love of that which they desire - of women and sons, heaped-up sums of gold and silver, fine branded horses, and cattle and tilled land. That is the enjoyment of worldly life, but Allah has with Him the best return.

Katakanlah: sukakah kamu aku ceritakan kepada kamu apa yang lebih baik daripada yang demikian, di sisi Tuhan mereka, bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa? Ialah syurga-­syurga, yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai, kekal mereka di dalamnya, dan isteri-isteri yang suci, dan keridhaan dari Allah. Dan Allah melihat akan hamba-hambaNya.

Say, "Shall I inform you of [something] better than that? For those who fear Allah will be gardens in the presence of their Lord beneath which rivers flow, wherein they abide eternally, and purified spouses and approval from Allah . And Allah is Seeing of [His] servants -

:)

Dear Ramadhan #1

Assalamualaikum, and tomorrow marks our first Ramadhan for 2012. Yay! :)
Just came back from Game' Ibrahim Mosque, and alhamdulillah, we managed to complete our first solah taraweeh for this year.

وَ إِذْ يَرْفَعُ إِبْرَاهِيْمُ الْقَوَاعِدَ مِنَ الْبَيْتِ وَإِسْمَاعِيْلُ رَبَّنَا تَقَبَّلْ مِنَّا إِنَّكَ أَنْتَ السَّمِيْعُ الْعَلِيْمُ

Dan (ingatlah), ketika Ibrahim meninggikan (membina) dasar-dasar Baitullah beserta Ismail (seraya berdo'a): "Ya Rabb kami terimalah daripada kami (amalan kami), sesungguhnya Engkaulah Yang Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui. (QS. 2:127)

127. "And (remember) when Abraham and Ismail raised up the foundations of the House; (saying): ' Our Lord,! Accept (this service) from us; for surely You are All-Hearing, Ali-Knowing'

رَبَّنَا وَ اجْعَلْنَا مُسْلِمَيْنِ لَكَ وَ مِنْ ذُرِّيَّتِنَا أُمَّةً مُّسْلِمَةً لَّكَ وَ أَرِنَا مَنَاسِكَنَا وَ تُبْ عَلَيْنَآ إِنَّكَ أَنْتَ التَّوَّابُ الرَّحِيْمُ

Ya Rabb kami, jadikanlah kami berdua orang yang tunduk patuh kepada Engkau dan (jadikanlah) di antara anak-cucu kami umat yang tunduk patuh kepada Engkau dan tunjukkanlah kepada kami cara-cara dan tempat-tempat ibadah haji kami, dan terimalah taubat kami. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Yang Maha Penerima taubat lagi Maha Penyayang. (QS. 2:128)

128. " 'Our Lord, make us submissive (Muslims) to You, and of our progeny an Ummah (a nation) submissive to You, and show us our ways of worship, and turn to us (mercifully); for surely You are the Oft-Returning, the Most Merciful '."

These two ayahs was repeated 3 times by the syeikh imam, just now. For sure, these are beautiful verses indeed. An Ummah submissive to you.

During the witir prayer, the imam emphasize our dua for our brothers & sisters in Syria & Burma who are now suffering just because they claim themselves as moslems.

I remember, my ramadhan last year, was all about me. Almost all of my duas was about me, me & me. My happiness, my family, my future, everything, as if the world revolves around me.  It's time that we pray for our muslim brothers & sisters, too. Pray for them, like we pray for ourselves. Pray for them seriously. If only each & one of us are not selfish, praying for each and every muslims in the world, masyaAllah, of all these splendid duas, at least some of them, Allah will grant them. In fact, Allah can grant all of these duas, InsyaAllah.


May this Ramadhan brings lots & lots of barakah, and change each and one of us into better muslims. Amin Ya Rabb. InsyaAllah the victory of Islam will come soon enough. Allah promise us this, all we got to do is have faith in Him, strongly.

Just a post paediatric exam bebelan.

you see
we dh sampai one stage where there's so many things we want in life

• but we keep on denying them
• and then we go.. "Just let it be what it is"
• and then i realized
• " Just let it be what it is" is just so easy to say
• in the end.. we will end up exactly where we should end up in
• because its already written down in the luh mahfuz
• every now and then
• in our everyday life
• we are presented with so many choices
• but we just dont know what to do with them
• and so we just say "forget it".
  
  
  we end up not choosing anything.
  we don't move forward. 
  we can't go backwards.
  
  
  
  
  thanks for the bebelan, friend. we should try harder, moving forward.
  it's time to consider all the choices that we have purposely neglected, all these years.
  
  
  :)
  
  
  
  

Good Late Morning & You

An old favourite of mine.
Tolong lah hur, lagu kau semua lama. :P

Good Morning & Good Things.

Good things come to those 

who wait,
 patiently.

 work hard,

continuously.

pray hard,
silently.

if bad things,
or even nothing comes,
it might be a good thing.

New Discovery

How's your day today?

How do you feel?

Are you angry?

What's wrong?

What's your future plan?

I have all the answers, but sometimes, one can't just utter their words simply.

It's not that simple, as it looks.

Or maybe, 

One is just too complicated. hehe

These canals, it seems 

They all go in circles 

Places look the same, 

And we're the only difference 

A Pathfinder

I miss those backpacking times.
Exploring new world beyond my imaginations.
Meeting people with different backgrounds, culture, religions & perspectives.
Collecting new ideas, expanding my visions, revealing the ancient histories

I need a new adventure!

Shifting to --> *kumpul duit mode*

Kalau niat betul, Allah permudahkan, Biiznillah.


Tidakkah mereka telah berjalan dan mengembara di muka bumi, dengan itu tidakkah mereka memerhatikan bagaimana kesudahan orang-orang yang terdahulu dari mereka? Orang-orang itu adalah orang-orang yang lebih dari mereka tentang kekuatan tenaga dan tentang kesan-kesan usaha pembangunan di muka bumi. Maka sekalipun demikian, Allah binasakan mereka dengan sebab dosa-dosa mereka, dan tiadalah bagi mereka sesiapapun yang dapat menyelamatkan mereka dari azab Allah.

Surah Gafir; ayat 21

just a lil' bit

that tune
that scents
that vibe

if it's still stabbing the heart,
mimicking a typical angina attack.
then, it's a sign.
a sign that one still need a little bit more time.

yeah, just a little bit more.

#25

Jgn Terkeliru Dgn Hati Sendiri

Dr Har pernah berkata;

Sisters, why do you wear hijab?
Really, why do you wear hijab?
Remember sisters, kita ni, pakai hijab,
bukan kerana lelaki.
Tetapi kerana Allah.
Iman lelaki, tanggungjawab mereka.
Tapi ingat, jangan sekali-kali kita pakai hijab, hanya semata-mata kerana takut lelaki nampak aurat kita sahaja.
Pakailah hijab kerana kita sepenuhnya ingin buat apa yang Allah suka, supaya Allah sayang kita balik.


Which brings me to the next point,
Kenapa kita kaum wanita ingin menjadi baik & solehah?

Jangan nak jadi solehah sebab kita mengharapkan suami yang soleh akan tertarik dengan kita.
Jangan nak jadi solehah sebab kita nak masyarakat hormat pada kita
Jangan nak jadi solehah sebab kita nak semua orang sayang kita
Jangan nak jadi solehah sebab kita nak orang puji kita.
Jangan nak jadi solehah sebab saja nak bajet & mengampu mak mertua . LOL

Because, even if you are solehah,
ia takkan menjamin kita dikurniakan suami soleh.
If your goal for being solehah is just to gain suami soleh, or whatever that you are aiming at,
then, that is what you will get. Or, probably you wont get it pun, sebab semuanya masih di tangan Dia.
*refer balik hadith 1 yang semua org dah tahu tu :p* 

Tetapi, if your mere intention, of being whatever you are today,
because of Him, and Him only,
Then insyaAllah,
walaupun tak dapat suami sesoleh mana, atau suami yang teruk barangkali (sebab allah nak bagi dugaan),
walaupun masyarakat pandang enteng terhadap kita,
walaupun semua orang benci gile pada kita,
walaupun orang kutuk kita,
walaupun mak mertua salah paham & menyampah kat kita,
you know, you have something better.
His love.
Don't let the dunya demotivates us from striving for the eternal hereafter.

Jangan satu hari kita mempersoalkan Allah,
saya dah solehah, dah cukup baik dah,
tapi kenapa benda2 tak baik, masih lagi berlaku pada saya?

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, “We believe”, and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false.
[Al-Ankaboot, Verses 2-3] The Holy Quran

Betulkan balik niat kita.
kadang2 kita terlupa.
sibuk untuk apa yang tampak indah hanya di dunia.
Yang rasa kurang solehah atau baik, takpe. takde masalah. selagi jantung kita masih lagi berdegup,
insyaAllah, ada je peluang lagi.
Just jangan lupa, kita tak tahu bila jantung ni akan berhenti
*Ini pesanan khas untuk diri saya sendiri sebab Solehah & baik tu sangatlah jauh lagi*
Kita semua hanyalah manusia yang sentiasa mencuba.

Jadilah seperti apa yang Allah, dan Rasul kita suka.
Meanwhile, do pray hard for our jodoh, rezeki, career, whatever.
But remember, our true main goal and destination,
is the hereafter.

Let's us work hard & not to worry on things that are beyond our control. Things that is already fixed for each and of us. (Ajal& Maut, Rezeki, Jodoh etc). Things that only Allah knows.
Just pray hard that Allah gives you the best on each and STRIVE to be the person that Allah loves.

( Sahih Muslim : Book 32,  Number 6221)
Abu Huraira (Radi Allah Anhu) reported Allah's Messenger (sal-allahu-alleihi-wasallam) as saying: "Verily Allah does not look to your faces and your wealth but He looks to your heart and to your deeds."

p/s: a thoughtful reminder especially for me & my dear sisters in Islam. *bukan yg SIS tu ye* hehe.

#24

“‎”If tears can build me a way, and memories can build me a lane, I will walk the ocean to be with you once again.”

—	From Shaker Aamer’s poem from Guantanamo to his wife.

#23; Foundation of all good deeds.

“I was wondering what the foundation of all good deeds could be. I found that good deeds are many, such as praying and fasting, and they are all in the hands of Allah.We have no access to what Allah has, except through asking Him, so I realized that the foundation of all good deeds is Du’aa.” – Mutarrif

Alhamdulillah. 

22#; Have a little Faith

learn how to trust people.

if not, one day you might end up being all alone.

learn to trust.

it's not that hard.

right?

"Love all, trust few, do wrong to none"- William Shakespeare

"When i lost trust in you, I lost trust in almost all people" - Copper

"Show forgiveness, encourage what is good, and do not punish the foolish" [Surah Al-A'raf 7:199]

Turn to the dark side, you must not.

Yoda pernah berkata;

Fear is the path to the dark side.

Fear leads to anger, Anger leads to hate.

Hate, leads to suffering.

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11 tahun dahulu

"Kenapa nangis?", ibu bertanya pada Fatimah.

"Tak tau".

"Mana boleh tak tau. Everyone cries for a reason",

"Sometimes, Fatimah rasa nak nangis tanpa sebab. Nangis pun salah ke,"

"Hrmm. pendendam. deep down, Fatimah jenis suka pendam perasaan ni"

8 tahun dahulu

"Aku suka kawan dgn kau. Kau matang", kata Halimah.

"Matang? maksudnya?", Fatimah berasa hairan.

"Ko lain. tak macam budak asrama lain. Matang. Tak join budak2 kecik yang lain tu",

"Aku tak suka.,"

"Tak suka apa?"

"Jadi ordinary, macam diorang. I'm different",

"Hahaha. Aku suka. Kalau macam tu, kau mesti tak suka duduk kat asrama ni kan?"

"Tak. Never, and will never do! Aku tak suka tempat ni. Aku tak suka org2 yang duduk kat sini. Hipokrit. Penuh penipuaan. Rules dia ridiculous. What's the point of making rules which are meant to break. Apa semua ni? Boleh kata aku pula yang sombong. This place is hell you know. Hell."

"Woahhhh. Rilek. Chill. Kau jenis pemarah juga rupanya. Muka lembut, tapi ada api membara dalam tu,"

"Sebab aku jenis tak marah selalu la benda ni kumpul dalam benak dada aku."

"aku ada plan. Kau nak lari dari sini?"

"Nak!"

"Kita boleh plan sama2. Tapi plan ni, i tell you, takes time."

"Kalau boleh, hari ni juga aku nak blah,"

"Woah. Sabar. Good things, come to those who wait,"

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Kau dah lain la Fatimah," kata Halimah.

"Apa yang lainnya?",

"Kau dah start rapat dgn dak2 tu. Apa cer weyh? Dulu kata benci.",

"Oh. They seems to be alright actually. Dulu tu, diorang kutuk2 aku, sebab tak kenal aku lagi. But now, diorang kata, best kawan ngn aku."

"Kau yang kata diorang hipokrit.",

"Well, that's quite true. Tapi, bila kita bagi chance kat diorang, they can act differently. people can change."

"Habis tu, plan kita nak lari dari asrama camne?"

"Oh, about that. I rethink about it, dan aku rasa. buat benda camtu seems tak matang. I mean if you have a problem with the system, deal with it. Bukan lari dari diorang. Blend in with them. Then, you get the opportunity to discuss baik2 dgn diorang. Diorang terima je pendapatorg lain. Kalau cakap baik2."

"I dont know you anymore. Kau berubah Fatimah. Senangnya pendirian kau berubah. Aku rasa kau yang hipokrit."

"Bukan Halimah. Perasaan benci terhadap sesuatu tak cukup. Memang ada banyak benda yang mereka buat salah. Tapi, dengan mengasingkan diri dari mereka, dengan tidak berbuat apa2, mengutuk belakang2, kita tak dapat apa. Dosa ada lah. As if we are at the same level with them. And of course dgn cara kita ni, diorang takkan berubah. Berlapang dada dgn mereka. Accept kelemahan mereka, and try to improve it together. Sebab mereka juga banyak keistimewaannya. something that you & I dont have. Dan kita pun, banyak kelemahan juga."

"Sudahlah Fatimah. Kau nak join diorang join lah. Aku selesa macam ni. Baik aku duduk seorang diri"

"Takpe la. Satu hari mungkin kau nampak. Kita masih lagi berdarah muda remaja. Banyak yang kita tak faham lagi,"

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Beberapa bulan dahulu.

"Marah sangat ke dengan arab tu tadi?" ibu bertanya pada Fatimah

"Geram nye Ya Allah. Ibu bukan tak tau, Fatimah memang cukup pantang dengan orang yang menipu. Geram dia macam,,,,,, haihh, takpela ibu. Sabar je la. Astaghfirullah,"

"haha. anak ibu masih lagi suka dendam perasaan. Cerita je la dengan ibu.",

"Bukan Fatimah tak suka bercerita dgn ibu. Cuma, kadang2, Fatimah rasa tak semua perasaan tu boleh dicerita. Kebanyakan orang faham the crude emotions; sedih, gembira, marah. Tapi kadang2, ada perasaan yang tak dapat digambarkan dan yang tak terluah. Sayang, tapi tak suka dengan perlakuannya. Marah, tapi faham dengan tindakannya. mungkin, Fatimah sendiri yang kene cari cara untuk luahkannya."

"Tapi, seorang ibu, masih lagi boleh faham, walaupun anaknya tidak cerita apa-apa,"

"Fatimah tahu. Sebab, semua ibu hebat2! Jadi, lepas ni, Fatimah tak payah la cerita apa2. Sebab memang ibu faham semuanya. hehe"

"oh, pandai ye,"

“Sesungguhnya di kalangan hamba-hamba Allah itu ada satu golongan,mereka bukan dari golongan para nabi ataupun syuhada’,tetapi para nabi dan syuhada’ mencemburui mereka,tempat mereka di sisi Allah s.w.t.Kata para sahabat,khabarkan kepada kami siapa mereka? Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda:”Mereka adalah satu kaum yang saling cinta-mencintai kerana Allah, bukan ada hubungan saudara-mara di kalangan mereka dan juga bukan kerana kepentingan.Demi Allah,di wajah mereka ada cahaya dan mereka di atas cahaya.Ketika manusia takut,mereka tidak takut.Ketika manusia bersedih,mereka tidak bersedih.Dan mereka berkata,sesungguhnya wali-wali Allah tidak takut dan tidak sedih.”- HR Abu Daud.

UBM

watak yang paling anda sukai?

watak yang tidak disukai?

*facepalm* tak jadi isi, sebab takde idea nak tulis apa.

nmpk sangat kau tak leh kawen lagi hurrrr. LOL

must be a side effect.

because, i think i'm hallucinating.

with excessive palpitation&tachycardia.

all, the time.

21#

Kalau ada jumpa kawan yang baik, jaga baik-baik. walaupun kadang2 salah faham tu selalu berlaku. kita tak tau, bila lagi boleh jumpa org yang baik2.

P/S: ada sebab Allah temukan kita dgn seseorang :)

Thank you Allah.

#20

“‎If you don’t have the ability to compete with the pious in righteous deeds, compete with sinners in seeking Allaah’s forgiveness”

—	Ibn Rajab p/s: rindu pula MABIT. hehe. :)

Cornetto separuh makan.

2009

"Ko nak aiskrim?", tanya Aminah pada Fatimah.

"Eh, x payah laa. Ais krim buat org gemuk", jawab Fatimah.

"Ngade. nak la tu". Aminah menghulurkan aiskrim.

"Hehehe. Terima kasih. Bestnya orang belanja",

"Sedapnya aiskrim. Syukur alhamdulillah, ada orang belanja hari ni. Tadi dah la tak bwk duit. hihi", monolog Fatimah dalam hati sambil berjalan pulang ke rumah.

"Aiz... aiz aiskrim...", tiba-tiba anak bawab bawah rumah, Ahmad meminta-minta aiskrim dari Fatimah.

"Hishhh. ngada betul laaaa. tak boleh la tengok aku makan aiskrim dgn tenang. Bukan selalu nak makan aiskrim cornetto ni......", Fatimah mengomel dalam hati.

Dengan rasa yang sangat berat hati, diberinya aiskrim yang hampir separuh di makan tadi pada Ahmad.

"Padan muka Ahmad. Tadi kakak dia rebut aiskrim tu dari dia. nangis2 dia nak aiskrim tu. tu la, minta2 lagi aiskrim dari aku. Dia pun tak rasa juga akhirnya," Fatimah mengadu pada housematenya.

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2012

"Awak nak aiskrim? Aiskrim mega nak?", tanya Lili pada Fatimah.

"Tak payah laaaa", Fatimah menolak.

"Kita dah kaya ni, hehe, cepat la pilih, ada mega Gold ni", Lili berkeras juga.

"Ye la, tapi kita tak nk mega. nak cornetto. Kita susah la nk makan aiskrim batang2 ni. hehe",

"Ambik je la, mana awak nak,"

"Alhamdulillah. orang belanja hari ni. Dapat coklat pulak lagi. Tak ada boipren nak bagi coklat, membe bagi pun jadi laa. Panjang umur, murah rezeki si pemberi niii..", Fatimah berkata-kata seorang diri sambil menikmati aiskrim cornetto.

"lau samaht, sa3ah kam?" seorang budak perempuan kecil yg comel menegur Fatimah.

"maalish, ya banat, ana mush arfah. mafish sa3ah dal wakti", jawab Fatimah, dgn bahasa arab amiyah yang berterabur.

"ahh, meshi."

Fatimah kembali menjilat aiskrim cornetto nya yg lazat, sambil meneruskan perjalanan.

Kemudian dia terhenti.

Dia toleh belakang kembali.

Puas dia melihat gerak-geri si kecil tadi yang jalan seorang diri.

"ya banat!," Fatimah memanggil-manggil budak perempuan itu.

"enti aizah aiskrim?," tanya Fatimah padanya.

" aiwah... hehe..," jawab budak perempuan itu dgn tersipu-sipu malu.

Fatimah memberi aiskrimnya pada budak perempuan tersebut.

Gembira sungguh si kecil itu menerima aiskrim cornetto yang sudah separuh di makan.

Fatimah tersenyum melihat telatahnya.

Teringat pula pada Ahmad, si anak bawab, tiga tahun lepas....

"Sorry, Ahmad".

#19

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّيْنِ حَنِيْفًا فِطْرَتَ اللهِ الَّتِيْ فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لاَ تَبْدِيْلَ لِخَلْقِ اللهِ ذَلِكَ الدَّيْنُ الْقَيِّمُ

وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لاَيَعْلَمُوْنَ

Hadapkanlah wajahmu dengan lurus pada agama (Allah),

(tetaplah atas) fitrah Allah yang telah menciptakan manusia menurut fitrah itu. Tidak ada perubahan atas fitrah Allah. (Itulah) agama yang lurus, tetapi kebanyakan manusia tidak mengetahui. (QS ar-Rum [30]: 30).

http://xeniagreekmuslimah.wordpress.com/2011/07/21/six-things-that-cause-someone-to-go-astray/

p/s: kita semua pasti akan kembali pada fitrahnya. atau mungkin, sendiri kene berusaha jika kita jauh dari fitrah ini?

mungkin, aku terlupa. lagi.

6.15 pagi

"mesir camna? aman?"'

"alhamdulillah. 25 januari tu, diorang buat protest mcm biasa je. and celebrate 1 year"

"oh, i see. comel la baby kawan hur tu."

"oh, baby kak nisa ke? comel sgt. kecik je."

"hur takde calon lagi ke?"

"ma ni, hur da cakap, hur tak fikir lagi. banyak tak study lagi ni. nanti2 la, bila dah grad nnt"

"study tu lainnnn,,,, ye la, hur belajarlah rajin2. jadi pakar nanti, boleh bawa mama jalan2 sekali"

"insyaAllah, kalau yang tu yg terbaik"

"tapi, abah mesti tak nak ikut. asik dgn kebun dia je."

"hahaha. takkan nak paksa abah kot."

8.15 pagi

" semua org, malam ni hantar ye nota2 tu semua. ah, hur, dah siap nota soalan tu?"

" alamak, hehe. serius lupa. takpe, malam ni siap insyaAllah. kita hantar nanti"

8.30 pagi

"everyone, the class is at cc."

"kenapa cc?"

"oh, gabung dgn budak2 unit lain."

8.50 pagi

"everyone, go back to our unit. our class is there."

" eh, tak jadi gabung dgn unit lain ke? buang masa la jalan2 macam ni"

11.10 pagi

"lapar tak? jom makan"

"makan mana?"

"mcD nak."

"Jom. korang tak nak ikut skali? bawak je la beg. terus pegi unit nanti"

11.45 pagi

"wah,, rajinnya buat homework arab."

"ye la, tau la dia takde homework. camne eh nak buat ayat ni?"

12.30 tengahari

"banyak dah baca untuk exam?"

"ntah la. target semalam habis kan semua ni. tapi, ni tak habis2 lagi"

1.50 petang

"common things, are common. so, what are the complications of ................"

"kita kan, still tak paham, apa maksud common things, are common? hehe"

2.35 petang

"cepat call doc. kita tak dapat tajuk kita ni. esok nk present"

"aku tak bawak phone. ok, aku cakap dengan dia, tapi guna phone hannah"

2.50 petang

"hur, nak pegi mana?"

"beli makanan jap."

2.55 petang

*walks towards pantai*

*sitting at the bench*

*termenung*

*termenung jauh*

"SubhanaAllah, cantiknya. pantai, pantai. you've never changed kan. still blue& green like you used to be. still the same old pantai that i fall with during my 1st year here. sorry, dah lama tak datang sini. so many things thing to do. i've just lost track of everything."

*tenung burung-burung laut terbang tinggi*

*angin sepoi2 bahasa, tudung ditiup-tiup lembut*

*pakcik2 pancing ikan di tepi*

*hon2 tramco berbunyi-bunyi. tapi, telinga ni, seakan-akan sudah lali"

*dengar bunyi adzan asar gami' ibrahim *

Dalam dunia ini, pantai alex yang mengingatkan ku, padaMu.

Maafkan hamba Mu ini. Yang selalu tenggelam dalam duniawi.

Renungan di pantai ini, buat aku sedar kembali.

إِلَّا أَن يَشَاء اللَّهُ وَاذْكُر رَّبَّكَ إِذَا نَسِيتَ وَقُلْ عَسَى أَن يَهْدِيَنِ رَبِّي لِأَقْرَبَ مِنْ هَذَا رَشَدًا

"kecuali (dgn mengatakan) InsyaAllah. Dan ingatlah kepada Tuhanmu apabila engkau lupa dan katakanlah, 'Mudah-mudahan Tuhanku akan memberiku petunjuk kepadaku agar aku lebih dekat (kebenarannya) daripada ini"

-Al-Kahf, ayat 24-

you, will always be my favourite spot. of all. :)

giving up :)

What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there's always cups in the sink?
What if I'm not what you think I am?

What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

What if our baby comes home after nine?
What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes?
Then I'll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

kene paham each words betul2, then, you'll get the message

p/s: mula2 ingtkan giving up is a negative thing. tapi bila dah paham, baru tau mksudnya giving up on bad things hihihihi

i don't mind.

Someone asked me before, if someone tell you something like "let's be apart temporarily" or "i think it'd be better if we just didn't talk for awhile", how would i react?

it's easy. just do it. they did asked for it. i have no problem with this. As long as they're happy, i'm good with anything......................

and probably deep in my heart, i'll say something like;

We are never going to talk again, but I hope you know you are forever in my thoughts and prayers.

*sigh*. biasalah. manusia dan dunia :)