bomb?

haih..
camne ni.
good news: exam da nk abis
not so good news: my life is at stake.

camne nk cuti kat cairo ni?
selamat ke?
kalau x g cairo pon,
kalau g mansurah ke,
g tanta ke,
x pon kalau stay je kat sini..
still selamat ke?

everywhere is the same
malaysia also is not in a good state right now.
dengar citer rmi pekerja esp kerja kilang sume hilang kerja.
the recession there is that bad.
dgn melambak-lambak student medik kat cny, tak termasuk kat negara-negara lain lagi,
is there any hope for me to be a doctor?
who knows kan..
haihh..
ok, now i am really cogitating.

once upon a dream? so not going to let it happen.

in a few years t,
will i have what i am having right now?

*sigh*

hidup susah, mati pun susah jugak.
the best is to berserah je la kat allah.
If things are meant to be, dah x leh wat ape kan?
kan?

just so you know.

if you DON'T MEAN IT, don't say it.
if you say it, make sure YOU MEAN IT.
if not, i rather keep myself OUT of it.
seriously, don't make a fool out of me.
now that,,,
I REALLY MEAN IT.

giving up?? so not going to.

biochemistry,, checked.
anatomy,,checked.
2 down, 5 papers to go.


strange, but i used to love exams.
seriously.
you don't have to bring textbooks to school.
a few pencils, pens, a ruler would be enough.
don't have to listen to the teachers' voice which sounds like a lullaby to me.
no homeworks.
and come back home early.

but now, i'm not so sure about it.
yes, the advantages are still there.
except that now that things are getting tougher,
exam is not a bliss anymore.

ok, i nearly give up.
after biochem, i felt like i was soo stupid.
i did read the books.
i did the past year qs'
i discussed with my friends.
but why are the questions are so hard, that my brain is alrdy squeezed to the max,
and i gain nothing out of it.
it came to me that, maybe now i am turning to be soo stupid, that even if i read the book thousand times, it will never get inside my head.
i really felt stupid.
brainless.
at one point, i felt like quitting at that instance,
buy a ticket,
go back to malaysia,
get into any prvate college,
take another easier course, like way easier than this one,
and maybe,
i said, maybe,
live happily.
or not.

like what mama told me,
any course would be tough.
nothing is easy.
no pain, no gain.
u want it, work for it.
but what if i already worked my butt off,
ok, not really,
but i did worked hard, like i never did before,
and the result is, well,
not like what i expcted.

so, after a long hot bath,
i finally get back to my senses,
and i fortunately,
decided that, whatever the outcomes of this exam,
i'm going to accept it with all my heart.
with all my heart.
i sooooo don't want to fail.
i want to go back this summer.
i just going to do my thing,
and the rest is up to Allah.
after all, He is the One who put me here.
and i'm sure,
100% sure, that there's a reason for it.

even if i'm going to get the worse result among my friends,
the worse result among the others,
i'm not going to give up.
never.

whos david? the reverse

Let's switch places ea...


You've always been this way since high school
Flirtatious and quite loud
I find your sense of humour spiteful
It shouldn't make you proud
And I know your pretty face gets forward guys (girls)
But you make it better not to hide the lies

Are you sure that you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys (girls)
Cos' you're so cheap
And I'm not lying
You're not worthy of my time
Somebody saw, you sleep around the town
And I've got proof because the word's going around

(Don't know you)
You left your phone so I get baited
I hated what I saw
Stupid lying...who's David? ( Delilah?)
Some guy(girl) who lives next door
So go live in the house of David (Delilah) if you like
But be sure he (she) don't know Peter (Phoebe) John (Jenny) and Mike (Michelle)

Are you sure that you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys(girls)
Cos' you're so cheap
And I'm not lying
You're not worthy of my time
Somebody saw, you sleep around the town
And I've got proof because the word's going around

Don't know you
Do do do do woah
And I know that you try to break me into pieces
And I know what you're like but you can't hurt me now

I'm over you
Do do do do woah
It's so like you
Do do do do woah

Are you sure that you're mine
Aren't you dating other guys (girls)
Cos' you're so cheap
And I'm not lying
Your not worthy of my time
Somebody saw, you sleep around the town
And I've got proof because the word's going around (words going around)

Don't know you
Do do do woah
Don't like you
Do do do woah
Don't know you


lalalala.....

*sigh*

been awhile since i last posted a post...
well,, exam is coming,,
starting from tomorrow,,
and yes, i'm not ready,,
n will never be..

few updates..

• bought evoip from kader,,heaven!
• straight call mama...
• mama: full of stories.
  
• abg helmi's parents got this porche, carrera, red in colour= bpk dy!
• erra fazira is prgnant
• que haidar is going to marry linda jasmin..wth! toyboy ke ap...
• i'm going to have a kitty nxt year, and it's official, no matter what.
• exam: one whole month..wlcome to hell.
• zorro's getting fatter
• and so are my 3 sisters @ home.lala..
• rowm,, u just can't drive like me.
• waney just came back to mansurah from my place. thnks waney.
  
• hppy bcoming bday anis.
• got to get bck to my biochem.