a dream within a dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream

. I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?
* edgar allan poe*
(one of my all-time favourite poem, very deep indeed)


yes. a beautiful dream, turns into reality, in the most unexpected way.
you know what they say, the best things in the world, are free
(walaupun tiket baliknya tak freeee)
but oh well, it is worth every dollar and cent.
(sapa kata manusia tak boleh beli masa?)

but a dream is a dream, and soon, in a few hours, reality will wake me up.
not that i despise reality, no, not at all.
reality paints itself beautifully in its own way.
one thing for sure. after nearly 21 years journey of life,
i finally had found my heart and soul.
i went to search for it nearly all over the world,
terengganu, k.l, kelantan, muar, seremban, kuantan,
sampai ke tanah arab,
masih tak dijumpai.
and then i realized, it was right here all along,
where i belong.

kampung.
where the green is so green,
and the sky is pure blue.


thank you mama and abah for manja-manja-ing me for the past 1 month,
ye ma, hur tau " kau ni macam budak merah",
i am definitely not merah, i am a bit hitam. LOL.

i just thought that i need to manja2 for i know,
when i'm back in egypt, i have no one to manja2.
yes. independent, matured, boring, yada, yada..
how i wish, i can still duduk bawah ketiak mama and abah.
ye ma, hur tau.
there's lots of maturing stuff to do.
responsibilities, sensible, yada, yada, yada.
yes, hur kan miss-know-it-all.
hehe.
(nanti bila call mama, mesti dia lecture punya la ni, kalau dia baca nii)

you know how sometimes i think this world is cruel,
and i am not that strong enough to face this wild wild world
but with mama and abah, i feel so protected in our cozy shell.
ye ma, hur tau. "kau dah besar macam mak orang. wan baya kau dah ada 2-3 anak. cuba positive sikit. jangan jadi lembiikkkk"

hrmmm, dewasa. yada, yada , yada.
ye la. anak burung pun satu hari kena terbang,
anak kanggaroo kena keluar dari pocket mak dia,
anak kucing kena cari makan sendiri,
anak dara kena kahwin. haihhhhhhhhhhhh...............................

dengan ini, saya hur binti azmi,
sekali lagi akan cuba jadi kuat, dewasa, bertanggungjawab,
bedikari dan matang untuk mengejar cita-cita.
untuk mama dan abah saya. :)
untuk Allah terutamanya.
insyaAllah.

May Allah always give me sweet dreams of mama and abah,
when i am far far away, so that i wont miss them much.
i know Allah always do. :)
(skype, ym dan fb pun ada je. thank you, technology :P)

p/s: hopefully, when i get back, "mahligai syurga" kita is half way done. ok, 35% done. maybe? insyaAllah
lalala~

good bye malaysia.
hello alexandria, i really hope you are shiny and new :)