secara pokoknya.

one of the best vid from 15 Malaysia that i watched few years ago. Tok Guru speaking of agriculture.

bayangkan dari sebatang pokok yang kita tanam, berapa banyak pahala yg kita boleh dapat. hatta, bila penanam pokok itu meninggal dunia pun, pahala nya akan ditambah berterusan, sekiranya pokok itu masih lagi hidup, dan memberi manfaat kepada sekalian makhluk di bumi. it's one of the easiest way of gaining pahala selain daripada mengajar ilmu bermanfaat kepada orang lain.

InsyaAllah, i wish, this tradition of our family, yang diamalkan oleh kedua2 nenek moyang abah & mama akan diteruskan sehingga generasi yang terakhir sekali nanti. Amin.

and i need to do more than just tolong abah letak baja dan tanam benih je. :P

#14- Zainab&Abu El'Ass

This is the real love story between Zainab bint Muhammad and Abu El’Ass ibn Rabee’ [ra]; Zainab was the daughter of the Prophet sws and her cousin Abu El’Ass, was Khadeeja [ra]’s nephew. He was one of the nobles of the Quraish, and the Prophet sws loved him very much.

One day Abu El’Ass went to the Prophet sws before he had received his mission of Prophethood and said:

“I want to marry your eldest daughter.”

So the Prophet replied: “I must ask her first.”

He sws went to Zainab and asked her: “Your cousin came to me and he wishes to marry you, do you accept him as your husband?”

Her face turned red with bashfulness and she smiled.

So Zainab married Abu El’Ass, the beginning of a great love story. They had two children; Ali and Umaymah.

During this course of time Muhammad became a Prophet while Abu El’Ass was away from Makkah. Abu El’Ass returned to find his wife a Muslim. When he first came back, his wife said,

“I have great news for you”.

He stood up and left her. Zainab was surprised and followed him as she said,

“My father became a Prophet and I have become a Muslim.”

He replied, “Why didn’t you tell me first?”

Hence a big problem began between the two; a problem of religion and belief.

She told him, “I wasn’t going to disbelieve in my father and his message, he is not a liar, and he is “The Honest and Trustworthy” [Al-Siddiq wal Ameen]. I’m not the only believer; my mother and my sisters became Muslims, my cousin Ali ibn Abi Talib became a Muslim, your cousin Uthman ibn Affan became a Muslim, and your friend, Abu Bakr, became a Muslim.”

He replied, “Well, as for me, I don’t want people to say, ‘he let down his people and his forefathers to please his wife’. And I am not accusing your father of anything.”

Then he said, “So will you excuse me and understand?”

She replied, “Who will excuse and understand you if I don’t? I will stay beside you and help you until you reach the truth.”

And she kept her word for 20 years.

Abu El’Ass remained an unbeliever, and then came the migration. Zainab went to her father and asked him for the permission to stay with her husband. The Prophet sws replied,

“Stay with your husband and children”.

So Zainab stayed in Makkah, until the battle of Badr occurred. Abu El’Ass was to fight in the army of Quraish against the Muslims. For Zainab, it meant that her husband will be fighting her father, a time Zainab had always feared. She kept crying out:

“O Allah, I fear one day the sun may rise and my children become orphans or I lose my father”.

So the battle started, and ended in victory for the Muslims. Abu El’Ass was captured by the Muslims, and news of this reached Makkah. Zainab asked,

“What did my father do?”

They told her, “The Muslims won”.

So she prayed to Allah, thanking Him. Then she asked: “What did my husband do?”

They said: “He was captured.”

She said, “I’ll send a payment to release him.”

She didn’t own anything of much value, so she took off her mother’s necklace, and sent it with Abu El’Ass’s brother to the Prophet.

While the Prophet sws was sitting, taking payments and releasing captives, he saw Khadeeja’s necklace. He held it up and asked:

“Whose payment is this?”

They said: “Abu El’Ass ibn Rabee.”

He cried and said “This is Khadeeja’s necklace.”

As soon as the Messenger of Allah (PBUH) saw that necklace, he had a feeling of extreme compassion and his heart palpitated for the great memory. The Companions who were present there gazed in amazement having being captivated by the magnificence of the situation.

After a long silence, the Messenger of Allah sws stood up and said,

“O my people, this man is my in-law, should I release him? And do you accept the return of this necklace to my daughter?”

They answered in unison “Yes, O Messenger of Allah!”

The Prophet sws gave the necklace to Abu El’Ass and said to him,

“Tell Zainab not to give away Khadeeja’s necklace.” Then he sws said, “Abu El’Ass, Can we speak privately?”

He took him aside and said, “Allah has ordered me to separate between a Muslim and a disbeliever, so could you return my daughter to me?”

Abu El’Ass reluctantly agreed.

Zainab stood on the gates of Makkah waiting for the arrival of Abu El’Ass. When he finally came he said,

“I am going away”.

She asked, “Where to?”

He replied, “It is not me who is going, it is you. You are going to your father. We must separate because you are a Muslim.”

She implored him, “Will you become a Muslim and come with me?” But he refused.

So Zainab took her son and daughter and traveled to Madinah, and for 6 years she refused to remarry, hoping that one day Abu El’Ass would come.

After 6 years, Abu El’Ass was traveling in a caravan from Makkah to Syria. During the journey, he was intercepted by some of the Prophet’s companions. He escaped and asked for Zainab’s home. He knocked on her door shortly before the dawn prayer. She opened the door and asked him,

“Did you become a Muslim?”

He whispered “No, I come as a fugitive.”

She implored him once more “Can you become a Muslim?”

Again his answer was a negative.

“Do not worry.” She said, “Welcome my cousin, welcome, the father of Ali and Umaymah.”

After the Prophet sws prayed the dawn prayer in congregation with the people, they heard a voice from the back of the mosque,

“I have freed Abu El’Ass ibn Rabee.” Zainab had granted Abu El’Ass’ freedom.

The Prophet sws asked, “Have you heard what I heard?”

They all said, “Yes, Messenger of Allah.”

Zainab said, “He is my cousin and the father of my children and I have freed him.”

The Prophet sws stood up and said, “O people, I declare that this man was a very good son-in-law, he never broke his promise, and neither did he tell lies. So if you accept, I will return his money back and let him go. If you refuse it’s your decision and I will not blame you for it.”

The companions agreed, “We will give him his money.”

So the Prophet sws said to Zainab, “We have freed the one you have freed, O Zainab.”

Then he sws went to her and told her “be generous to him, he is your cousin and the father of your children, but don’t let him get near you, he is prohibited for you.”

She replied, “Sure, father, I’ll do as you say.”

She went in and told her husband, “O Abu El’Ass, didn’t you miss us at all? Won’t you become a Muslim and stay with us?”

But he refused. Abu El’Ass then took the money and returned to Makkah. Once he returned he stood up and announced,

“O people, here is your money. Is there anything left?”

They replied, “No, Abu El’Ass, there is nothing left, thanks a lot.”

So Abu El’Ass said, “I testify that there is no god but Allah, and Muhammed is His Messenger.”

Then he went back to Madinah and ran to the Prophet sws as he said, “Dear Prophet, you freed me yesterday, and today I say that I testify there is no god but Allah and you are His Messenger.”

He asked the Prophet, “Will you give me the permission to go back to Zainab?”

The Prophet sws smiled and said, “Come with me”;

he took him to Zainab’s house and knocked on her door. The Prophet sws said, “O Zainab, your cousin came to me and asked if he can return to you”.

Just like 20 years before, her face turned red with bashfulness and she smiled.

The sad thing was, a year after this incident, Zainab died. Abu El’Ass shed hot tears because of her death and drove those who were around him to tears. The Messenger of Allah sws came with eyes full of tears and a heart full of sorrow. Zainab’s death reminded him of the death of his wife, Khadeejah. He told the women, who gathered around Zainab’s corpse,

“Wash her three times and use camphor in the third wash.”

He performed funeral prayers on her and followed her final resting place. Abu El’Ass returned to his children, Ali and Umaymah. Kissing them and wetting them with his tears, he remembered the face of his departed darling.

May Allah be pleased with Zainab, the Prophet’s daughter! May He reward her with Paradise for her patience, endurance and struggle!

Abu El’Ass would cry so profusely that the people saw the Prophet himself weeping and calming him down. Abu El’Ass would say,

“By Allah, I can’t stand life anymore without Zainab.”

He died one year after Zainab’s death.

check up or CHECKMATE?

" jom pegi buat medical check up la hur. i think it's something to do with your lungs la. It's getting worse".

"mama ni, you're the one with the big lump on your shoulder. mama yg patut buat checkup"

"mama dah tua. kamu tu muda lagi"

"mama pegi la check up dulu. x brani kan..... "

it seems that the idea of meeting a doctor for medical check-up is scary indeed.

for some people, what they afraid most is about getting injection. mcm org2 tua cakap,

"tak nak den dho. sakit bilo dokto cucuk".

i think it's just a mere excuse given by them.

what we actually fear most is TO HEAR THE TRUTH, from the doctors themselves.

"pakcik, pakcik disahkan menghidap kanser. ermm, sakit barah. stage 3. kemungkinan ada masa dalam setahun dua je lagi"

takut kan? takut kan?

ok. i think cancer is a little bit overrated.

what about the common health problems?

for example; diabetes, heart diseases, hypertension.. etc.

i remember when some of my relatives came to our house. since my father have this glucose meter *to monitor his blood sugar level from time to time*, most of my aunties and uncles thought of checking their glucose level.

"normal tak gulo den ni, hur? berdebar la plak nak tunggu result eh."

"mcm tinggi sikit la ni....................."

"hah?!"

"tapi biasa la, baru lepas makan kan."

"fuhhh.." *menarik nafas kelegaan*

a few days ago, when my wan had a fever,

she asked me to check her pulse.

and she was like,

"ok tak jantung wan ni? jangan la cakap tak ok. wan takut ni"

"nadi wan normal je. tapi jantung tu hur tak tau la. kene cek doktor betul. hur ni tak abis belajar lagi"

and i know, the chances are, she won't see a real doctor. not just yet.

for some, waiting the result is like your heart been ripped slowly.

if the result turns well, then it's ok.

if not, your heart will tear down in pieces.

you probably won't die for the disease that you've been recently diagnosed to,

but heart attack from knowing it will be likely to kill you, on the spot.

but as scary as it is,

the fact is many of diseases screened can be treated, if detected early.

yeah, everyone knows that. but really, how many of us are brave enough to handle the truth.

i know that most of the makciks' & pakciks', wan2 and atok2 in kampung can't.

even the youngsters, probably because they are so busy with work and stuff,

they dont have the time to think of their own health.

with all the stress and the food that we eat.

and next thing you know, when all the signs and symptoms started to appear, it was too late.

that explains the uprising number of death of young people in their 30's due to heart attack.

men mostly. those who were not yet married, or recently married, or just having their eldest child. sad indeed.

and really, was it just me, or really the number of breast cancer cases tremendously increase within these few years.

cervix cancer, not to mention all kind of cysts with different kinds of shapes and sizes appearing in variety of organs.

yeah, scary indeed. especially when those who are closely related to us already been diagnosed with certain genetic related diseases.

it kinda hits us, "bila plak time aku ni?"

in the other hand, it's true that our ajal&maut is already written, and when our time comes, there's nothing that we can do.

but we also know that, apa-apa pun, kita kena usaha dulu,

baru tawakkal.

and in my humble opinion, medical check up, is probably a way of our usaha, to keep our body healthy. especially, when we started to realise that there is something unusual about our body.

and come on la, it's not that expensive. with all the subsidy given by our government.

it's not that it has to be done oftenly.

after all, taking care of our health, is a very important ibadah indeed.

amanah dari Allah yang dipertanggungjawabkan ke atas kita.

wallahualam.

what we don't know, won't hurt us.

but i think what we don't know will only hurt us more, in addition to that,

it will also hurt those around us.

and by that, i know, there's nothing else that hurts me more,

than seeing my loved ones to be hurt.

besides, how long can we actually hide the truth? because eventually, the truth will come to light. bright light that is. :P

as strange as it is, there is also cases of munchausen syndrome. which is totally opposite of iatrophobia *fear of seeing a doctor*

p/s: i'm not afraid of check-up, is just that i know, it's nothing much. mama is always a little bit worried. that's all. maybe we, doctors-to-be need to be a little bit convinced to the patients. try to encourage the public that there's nothing to be afraid of medical check-up.

but then again, cakap mmg senang :p

Smile, And Everything Falls Into Place

"Raya ni, ramai betul ada macam-macam masalah ye",

True. And i smile listening to such statement.

It seems that too much "inside" information can only cause me to just smile.

No specific meaning.

Not a sarcastic smile.

Just drawing a simple curve line on my lips.

A sincere smile surfacing from deepest portion of my heart.

Somehow, it's a bliss.

Probably, in disguise.

And in such cases, the power of doa comes into place

A deep prayer, with a smile :)

I said to You: My sins are so many

You said: ‘And who can forgive sins except Allah?’ (3:135)

I said to You: Do not leave me

You said: ‘So remember Me; I will remember you…’ (2:152)

I said to You: I’m facing a lot of difficulties in life

You said: ‘And whoever fears Allah? He will m

ake for him a way out’ (65:2)

I said to You: I have many dreams that I want to come true

You said: ‘Call upon Me; I will respond to you.’ (40:60)

There has come to you enlightenment from your Lord. So whoever will see does so for [the benefit of] his soul, and whoever is blind [does harm] against it. And [say], “I am not a guardian over you.” (6:104)

“This [Quran] is enlightenment for mankind and guidance and mercy for a people who are certain [in faith].” (45:20)

#13

“Alice in wonderland syndrome. Its a disease. It is like looking through the wrong end of a pair of binoculars. As if you are living in a fantasy world of a fable. A curious yet sad syndrome. I must be a victim of this syndrome. If that’s not the case, then why in the world, all the moments with this so ordinary girl.. become a fairytale?”