addiction

caffeine.

wah.

the sound of it just gives me satisfaction.
the smell of caffeine plak, fuhhh, i tell you,
sape2 punye perfume pon cannot beat that.

it just get you so addictive.
lepas tu, you just can't stop.
tu yg extrasystole tu. ha, lps tu ble kene naek tangga tinggi2, dah start la jantung rse nk terkeluar dari dada kan. :P

but i only do this during exam. seriously, it keeps me awake. and alive. haha.
pstu tak tido petang. ble malam pengsan. ble tgh malam bgun.

tapi sbb ade orang marah kan.
"hur ape ni minum kopi je ni"

and i was like,
"kacip fatimah kot"

"eh, lagi la. tak elok la. buat ovary kecut. sbb kte muda lagi"

and i was like,
"hah? tak mawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"tu la. minum la teh ni. sedap. murah. sihat. "

dan ye. skrang addiction terbaru. teh sedap yg direkemenkan oleh sayang saya. :p

maybe it will not work as powerful as my kacip fatimah. ahaha. tp it will do. if i keep on drinking it all night long. msti tak ngantok punye la.

p/s: btw, saya suke org marah2 ni. marah tanda nye sayang. :)

jgn jawab cmni dalam exam. walaupun it's kinda cute. :P

i repeat. do not answer your exam questions like this.
i do not want to be responsible for any kind of stupidity :p

let's work hard and smart people.
yes, i was talking to myself of course. huhu

what makes a super woman.

that's her. 50 years ago.

that's her. 30 years ago.

this is her. now
:)



for all the things that you had been through,
the dreams that you had achieved,
the sacrifices you've made,
the love that you spread,
the pain that you'd endured,
the songs that you sang,
the muffins that you'd baked,
the lectures that you'd preached

for all the things that you do, and will do,
it makes you all super.

when they told me i am so lucky to have you,
i couldn't agree more.

though at times we don't see eye to eye on certain things,
i guess that's what makes our love grows stronger.

you're more than just a mother,
you're the best-est friend i could ever wish for,
and for that i know there's only one to thank.
thank you Allah for giving me such a superb mother :)

Happy Birthday Mama,
and yes, you've got a long way to go lagi in life, insyaAllah.
semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki. amin. :)


i wish i could be more like you.


p/s: takpe kalau abah nak bawak mama g makan kedai mamak je on your b'day. abah bukan tak romantic, he's just so macho sgt in expressing his true feelings. but we all know he always loves you. :) kan abah? :P

owh, and i know my grammar sucks. oh well. lalalalala. :P

now, this is what i call a GREAT love story. lalala

The love story of Ralph and Edna.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all
they have.

Ralph and Edna were both patients in a mental
hospital. One day while they were walking past the hospital
swimming pool. Ralph suddenly jumped into the deep end. He sank to the
bottom of the pool and stayed there. Edna promptly jumped in to save
him. She swam to the bottom and pulled him out.

When the Head Nurse Director became aware of
Edna's heroic act she immediately ordered her to be discharged from the
hospital, as she now considered her to be mentally stable. When she
went to tell Edna the news she said, 'Edna, I have good news and
bad news. The good news is you're being discharged, since you were able
to rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of the
person you love. I have concluded that your act displays sound
mindedness. The bad news is, Ralph hung himself in the bathroom with his
bathrobe belt right after you saved him. I am so sorry, but he's
dead.'

Edna replied, 'He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry. How soon can I go home?'




so sweet kan? hahahahaha

rendah diri atau ego?

let me recall you a story.
a story that i think all of us know.
a story that we should know.

owh, and do right me if i'm wrong.

rasulullah s.a. w and siti khadijah.
a great love story indeed.
but let me make it clear that it's not the love story that i'm going to focus on.

kita memang sedia maklum perbezaan umur yang ketara antara rasulullah dgn siti khadijah.
15 years. my, that's a big figure.
imagine if a modern woman living among us, married to a young man.
sure ade yg kutuk punye la.
but again, that's not the point.

now, umur is not the only thing yang mnjadi perbezaan antara mereka berdua.
there's something else.
perbezaan darjat.

siti khadijah is a famous and very wealthy indeed.
dia saudagar terbesar or terkaya.
rasulullah pulak, he's someone working for khadijah.
a very hardworking and trusty employee indeed.
i guess that's how khadijah falls for him.

ok. again, that's not the point.

ye lah, let met lead you straight to the point.

my point is, kalau nak ikutkan, mesti rasulullah ada rasa rndah dri kat siti khadijah.
dah la kaya, pastu matang, bos dia plak tu.

pastu, tiba2 khadijah datang masuk meminang rasulullah plak.

imagine if i put this situation in this modern era of time.

a 25 years old man,
kene pinang oleh a 40 years old woman,
yang merupakan bos dia yang kaya-raya.

fuhhh, agak2 dia nak terima tak pinangan tu?

msti dia rasa malu la. orang akan cakap, ko tak takut ke kawin ngn dia. nanti ko konfem kene queen control punya.

takpun, apa orang sekarang cakap. perigi cari timba, timba cari perigi? haha. ye la, ape plak perempuan yang pegi pinang, tak gentleman la.

my MAIN POINT here is, sumeorang allah dah letak sama rata. yang bezakan manusia bukan pangkat atau harta, mahupun jantina, tapi iman yang hanya allah je tau each and one of us punya iman's level.

there's no such thing as, aku tak boleh la kawan dgn dia, sbb dia pandai lagi dr aku.
ak tak layak nak tegur dia, dia lagi alim.
or dia kaya, takut aku nak campur dgn orang camtu.
ataupun, hish, dia pompoan, taknak aku ikut telunjuk dia. macam dayus plak.

let me ask you, adakah sebenarnya anda rasa rendah diri atau ego?
ego dimana, anda rasa tergugat dgn orang yang lebih dari anda.
i mean come on, everyone has their own specialities. why don't you believe in yours?

macam rasulullah, he accept je pinangan siti khadijah.
owh and yes, they built a happy marriage for sure.
walaupun relationship mereka, siti khadijah yang macam buat the first move, but after that, rasulullah yang bimbing isteri dia.
and siti khadijah ialah isteri yang solehah dan taat for sure.
walaupun khadijah lagi matang atau berpengalaman, khadijah tak penah go against her husband.
instead, khadijah always give endless supports to his husband.

memang la orang cakap ap, tu rasulullah, for sure la dia layak nak kahwin ngn sapa2 pon. dgn puteri raja pon dia layak.

but no, i believe, things happen for reasons. and i think, kisah rasulullah and siti khadijah definitely has its own reasons. allah nak kita belajar from his stories.

so, jangan lah kita terlebih superior, ataupun tersangat lah inferior.
everyone is equal. kalau kita ada kekurangan,
kelebihan kita boleh compensate kekurangan kita tu.
we find our ways to improve kekurangan yang ada.
kelebihan kita plak, kita gunakan untuk menolong orang lain.
so, we complete each other (ayat feveret. :P)

When you meet someone better than yourself, turn your thoughts to becoming his equal. When you meet someone not as good as you are, look within and examine your own self.- Confucius

jaga sket mulut tuh-part 2

it is so ironic.
atau allah memang nak tunjuk kot. :p


so there i was, chatting with ili, dalam tram.
and then suddenly, we saw a family, consists of a father, a mother, and a baby.

as usual laa, kami gadis-gadis pantang melihat baby.

h: "comel nyeeeee..........."

i: "memang comel. mak dia pon cantek. kurus"

h: "tapi ayah dia tua. entah2 tu anak perempuan dia. bukan isteri dia"

owh, dan tiba2, ayah dia berkata;

"dari malaysia?"

and we were like "????"

"ye, dari malaysia".

"perempuan melayu memang banyak"

and we were like "?????"

"ye, memang banyak"

i was so shocked, tapi masih lagi boleh tanya.

"macam mana boleh cakap melayu?"

and dengan coolnya dia cakap

" saya dulu kerja petronas dekat kidah"

"hah? dekat mana?"

"kedah"


bila dia melangkah keluar dari tram sahaja, maka saya dengan ili berpandangan antara satu sama lain.
and yes, we laughed at our own insanity.

i'm so sure pakcik tu tadi paham apa yang kitowang ngata2 from the start. gosh, malu nye.

so, you see, tak kesa lah kalau orang tu paham ke tak bila kita ngata2, dosanya tetap sama.
kenapa kalau orang tu paham, kita rasa malu, tapi kalau dia tak paham, kita lagi rasa seronok nak ngata. watch your mouth hur, watch it.

padan muka. ingat orang arab tak faham melayu. tak boleh cakap melayu.
kau tu je yang tak boleh cakap arab hur. baek ko blaja cepat. :P

i did learned a few words of arab recently during skills class.
"andak maarad eh?"
meaning like "awak sakit apa?"

ok. tak tau betul ke x. kalau salah, marah baem. dia yang ajar. :p

jaga sikit mulut tuh

ye. sila jaga mulut.

kerana sekarang saya sudah kerap mengeluarkan perkataan yang tak sedap untuk di dengar.

sopan sikit hur, nanti balik malaysia, ter "influenza" adik2 kamu pula.

mungkin saya perlu cari perkataan2 baru yang sedap untuk didengar.
mak saya selalu ajar untuk cakap "bertuah betul", instead of "bangang la"

mungkin saya perlu cari perkataan manis,
contohnya "madu betul la"
tapi takut sebut banyak2 nanti dimadukan pula.
ok reject.

hrmm, atau mungkinkah medical terms?
instead of "kau bodoh ke?",
ditukarkan kepada " kau ada cerebral atrophy ke?"
huisssh, macam lagi kejam je.

tapi kebanyakan orang suka cakap nama binatang..
mungkin "babi" perlu ditukarkan kepada "armadillo".
ok. merepek.

sekarang ni, perkataan "aku sepak kang" selalu disebut.
kalau nak manja sikit "aku babab kang"
tapi ada orang tu ajar "aku pupup kang"
boleh la pilih mana yang sedap.

bukan apa, saya pagi2 bangun dengar "shit!"
maka, saya mcm dah terpengaruh.
tak tetap pendirian sungguh.


pengajaran: banyak-banyakkan lah berzikir. kan lagi elok. kalau tak nak, baik tak yah cakap langsung. :P

mintak maaf la ye, kalau tak terkasar bahasa sejak dua menjak ni, takut ada mana-mana pihak terasa. kadang2 cakap maen lepas je. tak pikir. bukan apa. pening pale. tapi tak buta.

btw, saya dah lupa alamat rumah kat malaysia. alamat rumah kat sini lagi lah tak tau.
owh, warak kuliyah handasah je la kot.

oklah, gemuk-gemuk dah panggil. asik masak, makan, masak, makan. memang bulat semuanya. haihh

pakcik

slamat hari jadi pakcik.

anda tua.

ok fine, saya lagi tua empat bulan, tapi saya awet muda. muka saya tak mcm mak orang ok.

terima kasih la sbb jadi kawan saya.

dan sebab bg saya updates pasal chelsea,

juga updates band-band trbaru

juga snggup dengar bebelan saya tentang hidup yng penuh cabaran,

juga suka kutuk dan kata saya gemuk.

dan juga kasanova terbesar. :p (dy ckp tu dulu. lala. pape la pakcik. :p)

walaupun suka gaduh, kte tetap kawan kan. hahaha.




jadi pakcik tua yang loser, pegi la guna duit anda nak beli dslr.


p/s: aku tulis post ni bukan sbb ko tulis psl aku dlu. tapi sbb aku nak ko blanja kenny rogers dgn satu tket wayang. boleh tak? :p (demand2)


friends for life ye. :p

never crossed my mind.

makan-makan cinnabon

then, ili cakap,

"ala, kita simpan dy punye crust lastt skali, sbb sedap, tapi bila dah makan yg len, rse kenyang plak. nak makan crust ni pun rse muak"

and i was like. my god. kenapa aku tak pernah terpikir before this.
like why on earth i'd never thought about it.

all my life, up till now, all i did was save the best for the last.

tak kesa la duit ke, makanan ke, up to my dreammsss,

i was like always, always, macam,,
sabar hur, when the time comes, it will comes la.

but tadi, macam satu tamparan yang hebat.
it was like a wake up call for me.

i mean, what if, what if,
i've been so patience all along, and then suddenly, when i get what i want, what i always wanted,
what i've been waiting for,,
all out of sudden,
i don't want it anymore,
or worse, i might despise it,
or, someone else might had grab it first.

for example, mcm kes ili td kan,
dy memang suke sgt crust tu, tp sbb dah mkn yg len, dah rse muak, last2 she gave the crust to me sbb tak nk bazir.
padahal, dy sanggup makan yg len, n tunggu just because dy nak makan crust tu last skali. tp, keinginan tu pudar, nikmat nak makan tu pun dah hilang.

satu lagi situation, mcm diba curik ayam aku. haha. bukan nak ungkit. tapi, i save the best part of the ayam, for the last. because, i thought it will be such a pleasure to do so. tapi, tiba-tiba, someone stole it away. i was shocked. i was frustrated, because i waited for that. i wanted it so much. it's not diba fault pon. no offense ye diba.

some people save their money, because they already aim for something. something that they wanted for sooo long. so, they resist anything and everything, for they knew that, it's worth to do so.

tapi, when they had enough money to do so, they don't feel like nak beli dah. sebab, ntah. the feeling dah pudar. maybe, you don't need it anymore, or you might eyeing on something else plak.

do you know what i mean? :P

so, i thought, when you want something so bad, go for it, while you still want it. grab the opportunity whenever you have the chance.
don't wait too long, cause you'll never know, you might not want it anymore.

tapi,
td, ada orang tu tanya, what if it's related to someone yang kita suka.

then i was like,
"owh, yang tu tak boleh. meaning dat, this theory is not applicable in all situation. sbb, in that circumtances, it's best for us to wait"

and thirah goes,
"no, that theory is applicable in all situation, except for that one" :P

so guys, if you want something, go for it. do not think too much of stuff.
if you want to do something, do it while you still can.
if it's a good thing la, if it's a bad thing, jangan la buat kan, tu pandai2 la pikir sndri. :P
because life is too short. make the most out of it. insyaAllah. :)

it's a wrap.

If i ever misrepresented my self image
Then i'm sorry
I was oh so aprehensive
But i learned my lesson

Let the credits role, its a wrap

p/s: i reall miss these people.
i wish i could go back home right now.
owh well, love hurts,
but that what makes it sweeeeet. :)

i don't mind waiting for july/august,
i don't mind waiting,
for it's worth every single second.

kasih sayang?

assalamualaikum rakan-rakan.

:)

hari ini saya nak cerita pasal kasih sayang
saya suka kasih sayang sebab kewujudan saya di dunia ni pun atas kasih sayang
contohnya, kalau ibu bapa saya tak sayang antara satu sama lain, saya tidak mungkin akan wujud.
tapi yang paling penting,
kewujudan saya di atas dunia ini adalah atas kasih sayang Dia Yang Satu,
yup. kerana Allah S.W.T

ok2.
saya nak cakap la, tindakan saya selama yang saya hidup dalam dunia ini semua kerana ibu bapa saya. apart from Allah la.

kalau saya belajar, sebab ibu bapa saya.
kalau saya mengaji, sebab ibu bapa saya.
kalau saya tolong orang sebab ibu bapa saya.
kebaikan yang saya lakukan semua adalah sebab ibu bapa saya.

kalau saya terbuat kejahatan tu, maksudnya, saya terlupa pasal ibu bapa saya.
dan bila saya sedar, saya akan cepat2 cuba untuk memperbaiki kesalahan saya.

bila saya dapat keputusan exam yang kurang baik,
maka saya akan frust menonggeng,
sebab, saya rasa saya dah hampakan harapan kedua ibu bapa saya.
kalau saya malas nak study, saya pergi call parents saya,
nescaya, lepas tu saya rasa nak study.

mungkin saya rasa bertanggungjawab utk study,
kerana saya bertanggungjawab ke atas kedua ibu bapa saya.

tetapi, satu hari, mak saya kata;
"hur, study lah kerana kasih-sayang, bukan tanggungjawab"

saya pelik. saya tak paham.

kalau saya bertanggungjawab, mesti la kasih sayang tu akan lahir. kan? kan?

haha. silap rupanya. sebab kalau bertanggungjawab, tak semestinya ada kasih sayang.
sebab ada rasa kasih sayang, maka timbul lah rasa bertanggungjawab.

selama ini, saya lebih memikirkan tentang tanggungjawab. dan perkataan tanggungjawab tu juga kadang2 boleh jadi seperti sebuah beban.

tapi kalau kasih sayang, kita buat dengan ikhlas.
tak kisahlah macam mana susah pun, ada onak duri ke, kita pasti boleh lakukan,
dan kita tidak rasa seperti ia sebuah beban.

bukan saya tak sayang medik,
tapi rasa tanggungjwab itu mungkin telah mengatasi yang lain.

jadi kawan2, apa-apa yang kte lakukan pon, buat lah kerana kasih sayang.
bukan atas dasar tanggungjawab semata-mata.

jadi, jangan takut dgn tanggungjawab, sebab kalau kita sayang, rasa tanggungjawab itu akan lahir, walaupun ia mengambil sedikit masa dan usaha.

dan jangan takut untuk sayang, kerana kita tidak akan rugi apa-apa. :)