walaupun you hensem,,,

" Dan janganlah kamu nikahi perempuan musyrik, sebelum mereka beriman. Sungguh, hamba sahaya perempuan yang beriman lebih baik daripada perempuan musyrik meskipun dia menarik hatimu. Dan janganlah kamu nikahkan orang (laki-laki) musyrik dgn perempuan yang beriman. Sungguh, hamba sahaya laki-laki yang beriman lebih baik daripada laki-laki musyrik meskipun dia menarik hatimu. Mereka mengajak ke neraka, sedangkan Allah mengajak ke syurga dan ampunan dengan izin-Nya. Allah menerangkan ayat-ayat Nya kepada manusia agar mereka mengambil pengajaran"

Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 221.


sorrry, mungkin kita takde jodoh. :P
mama i pun takkan approve punya. huhu

the hardest thing

just now, i end up telling someone about one of my housemates.

he laughed, and said "you will sure miss them, when you're gone"

haihh,, tell me about it.

when i first made the decision. everyone was like "what?, why? something's wrong?"
haha. to be frank, i dont have the exact reason.
i know we are suppose to stay with each other till the 6th year.
i guess, things have changed. the condition might have changed. people change.

how i first thought of it, is still a mystery to me.
but after consulting to a few important people in my life, hehe,
i decided, this is the best way.
and somehow, allah makes everything easy. meaning that insyaAllah, this could be a good thing somehow.

housemates or not, is not a question here.
if your friendship is true, if your love is true,
it will stay for a long long long time,
no matter how things had changed, no matter how many years passed by, no matter where you are.
i always believe in that. because i still have few friends that stays in my heart, eventhough we had parted for yearsss.

because i always move from one place to another since i was little, i have problems in making my friends stay with me. but allah gives me something else, because, i learn how to look on others' sincerity. i mix with all kind of people. through them, that i manage to get where i am today,, and go further insyaAllah.

that's why i'd never afraid of saying goodbye. no matter how hard it is, i learn to let go. because i've been letting go the people i love so many times. each time it gets harder, but somehow, i'd made it. i believe nothing lasts forever. you cannot forever be with the person you are comfortable with. maybe, it's time for you, to not depend so much on other people. or maybe, it's a test to know whether your love for someone is strong or not. though one day, i know i will part with most of us here, my sectionmates, my housemates, my best friends. i believe, we just have to cherish each moments that we have now, while we can. go and create some sweet memories. and when there is a problem arises, never put it behind your back. go and solve it quickly. that's the most important thing in any kind of relationship.

"a friend" means a lot to me. Some people define love as having grades and levels. they tend to put some people on top of another. to me, love,,, is to love, or not to love. putting grades and levels in love is like saying; i love diba more than areqa. or i love abah more than mama. that is not how it goes. what differentiates love from one another is the priorities that we have to that person at that particular time. the commitments that we are giving. like right now, our priorities are to our parents and study.but this does not mean that we should not commited to our friends tooo. it's something that we have to balance. and when we have to choose, choose which is most important at that time. allah wants us to be versatile. if you cannot do this now, how are you going to balance juggling between your career, your parents and siblings, your parents-in-law, siblings-in-law, husband or wife, your children, your colleagues, your friends, your boss, your duty to Allah, the society. haha. everything has to come in mind.

love, is only a feeling. it is worthless, until you are commited with each other truthfully.

that's my way of loving people. because of that, my love will never stop.

i always love you the four gemok-gemok sekalian.
i wish the best for each and one of us.
you guys had never fail in putting such a genuine commitment as long as we are housemates.
may allah leads us to the right way always, insyaAllah.

p/s: nothing's changed. things will always be like when we first met. :)

i wish i'm not so nice.

told you i'm not an angel.
i will never be one.

sorry.

battle

You thought we'd be fine
All these years gone by
Now you're asking me to listen
Well then tell me 'bout everything
No lies, we're losing time

Cause this is a battle
And its the final last call
It was a trial
You made a mistake we know
Why aren't you sorry,
Why aren't you sorry, why
This can be better
You should be happy, try

You've got them on your side
They won't change their minds
Now its over and i'm feeling like i missed out on everything
I just hope it's worth the fight

dropping rain

because the rain is falling,
it is really okay,
because i couldn't see your tears, it is okay,
because it is okay,
i couldnt hold you back,
because the rain that could erase the painful memories in your heart,
is falling down.





haihhh,, maybe i should hide it,
and never let it out anymore.
never.

p/s: boleh tak jangan hensem sangat. :p

Esok, bila ayah pergi

Mama kata dia nangis baca. Hur tak tau nak kata apa. sebab hur pun sama. Al-Fatihah kepada cousin kak Puteri yang baru kembali ke rahmatullah. Allayharham macam dah tahu dia dah nak pegi. Siap tulis sajak lagi. :(


This message written by my cousin, allahyarham cikgu norazam in his blog september last year...please pass it around as reminder among us...thank you...


Anak-anak ayah
Dengar betu-betul pesan ayah
Lepas ni tak boleh cakap dah
Apabila kelu mulut dan lidah

Sekiranya esok ayah pegi
Jangan le anak ayah tangisi
Tapi kalau sedih di sanubari
Itu tanda anak ayah tetap dihati

Nabi dulupun sedih juga
Bila anak lelaki dia pergi tiga-tiga
Tapi jangan nangis lama sangat
Banyak benda anak ayah kena buat

Sedih lama sangat ayah tak mahu
Sebab tempat ayah pegi tu semua dah tahu
Ayah nak jumpa Dia
Ayah menyahut seruan Nya

Mula-mula sekali
Pasal solat sudahlah pasti
Kena buat setiap hari
Jangan abaikan walau sekali

Anak-anak ayah kena janji
Kena jaga diri sendiri
Ayah serahkan anak-anak pada Allah
Sebagai Penjaga, Pemelihara ayah berserah

Anak-anak ayah

Mama tu kena le dijaga
Waktu susah waktu selesa
Selama ni dia dah berjaga
Membesarkan kamu semua

Kata-kata mama jangan dilawan
Ayah tak de nak dibuat kawan
Lagi satu ayah nak pesan
Mama nak kahwin sila izinkan

Bila ayah dah pergi
Ayah dah tak de sapa-sapa
Kalau anak-anak ayah sudi
Doa-doakan ayah kat sana

Kalau anak-anak ayah simpati
Kirim-kirimlah fatihah
kalau ayah dekat dihati
Rajin-rajinlah bersedekah

Bukannya apa
Ayah dah tak de apa
Amal pun tak seberapa
Dosa yang bertimpa-timpa

Doa-doakanlah ayah
Semoga Allah tak marah
Banyaknya dosa tak tahu nak cakap dah
Soal jawab diharap mudah

Anak-anak ayah dah tahu dah
Ayah nak anak-anak ayah
Jadi hafiz dan hafizah
Jangan hampakan harapan ayah

Nanti bila ayah dah pergi
Anak-anak ayah jangan kelahi
Harta dunia ni macam daki
Semua orang boleh cari
Yang ada tu pakat le kongsi

Amalan setiap malam jangan dilupa
Surah Al Mulk Sejadah selalule baca
Solat malam diteruskan juga
Walau terpaksa bersengkang mata

Al quran dan Sunnah jadi panduan
Ayah ingatkan sebagai bekalan
Tinggalan oleh Rasul junjungan
Buat umat sepanjang zaman

Kawan-kawan ayah tolong beritahukan
Orang bawahan orang atasan
Segala silap tolong maafkan
Maklum le ayahkan Cuma insan

Hutang ayah tolong selesaikan
Guna duit ayah dalam simpanan
Yang baki tu bahagi2kan
Untuk yg hidup jadi bekalan

Ingat le anak-anak ayah nak kata
Pesan ni mesti dikota
Hidup jangan bersengketa
barulah kita tidak derita

Sekian saja pesanan ini
Untuk yang hidup dari yang mati
Ayah ni jangan dilupai
Lawatlah ayah jengukle sesekali

Di pusara ayah menanti
Amal sedikit temani diri
Wasiat ayah sila turuti
Supaya hidup bahagialah diri

p/s: Jangan lupa cium dahi ayah sebelum dikapankan yaa..