must be a side effect.

because, i think i'm hallucinating.

with excessive palpitation&tachycardia.

all, the time.

21#

Kalau ada jumpa kawan yang baik, jaga baik-baik. walaupun kadang2 salah faham tu selalu berlaku. kita tak tau, bila lagi boleh jumpa org yang baik2.

P/S: ada sebab Allah temukan kita dgn seseorang :)

Thank you Allah.

#20

“‎If you don’t have the ability to compete with the pious in righteous deeds, compete with sinners in seeking Allaah’s forgiveness”

—	Ibn Rajab p/s: rindu pula MABIT. hehe. :)

Cornetto separuh makan.

2009

"Ko nak aiskrim?", tanya Aminah pada Fatimah.

"Eh, x payah laa. Ais krim buat org gemuk", jawab Fatimah.

"Ngade. nak la tu". Aminah menghulurkan aiskrim.

"Hehehe. Terima kasih. Bestnya orang belanja",

"Sedapnya aiskrim. Syukur alhamdulillah, ada orang belanja hari ni. Tadi dah la tak bwk duit. hihi", monolog Fatimah dalam hati sambil berjalan pulang ke rumah.

"Aiz... aiz aiskrim...", tiba-tiba anak bawab bawah rumah, Ahmad meminta-minta aiskrim dari Fatimah.

"Hishhh. ngada betul laaaa. tak boleh la tengok aku makan aiskrim dgn tenang. Bukan selalu nak makan aiskrim cornetto ni......", Fatimah mengomel dalam hati.

Dengan rasa yang sangat berat hati, diberinya aiskrim yang hampir separuh di makan tadi pada Ahmad.

"Padan muka Ahmad. Tadi kakak dia rebut aiskrim tu dari dia. nangis2 dia nak aiskrim tu. tu la, minta2 lagi aiskrim dari aku. Dia pun tak rasa juga akhirnya," Fatimah mengadu pada housematenya.

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2012

"Awak nak aiskrim? Aiskrim mega nak?", tanya Lili pada Fatimah.

"Tak payah laaaa", Fatimah menolak.

"Kita dah kaya ni, hehe, cepat la pilih, ada mega Gold ni", Lili berkeras juga.

"Ye la, tapi kita tak nk mega. nak cornetto. Kita susah la nk makan aiskrim batang2 ni. hehe",

"Ambik je la, mana awak nak,"

"Alhamdulillah. orang belanja hari ni. Dapat coklat pulak lagi. Tak ada boipren nak bagi coklat, membe bagi pun jadi laa. Panjang umur, murah rezeki si pemberi niii..", Fatimah berkata-kata seorang diri sambil menikmati aiskrim cornetto.

"lau samaht, sa3ah kam?" seorang budak perempuan kecil yg comel menegur Fatimah.

"maalish, ya banat, ana mush arfah. mafish sa3ah dal wakti", jawab Fatimah, dgn bahasa arab amiyah yang berterabur.

"ahh, meshi."

Fatimah kembali menjilat aiskrim cornetto nya yg lazat, sambil meneruskan perjalanan.

Kemudian dia terhenti.

Dia toleh belakang kembali.

Puas dia melihat gerak-geri si kecil tadi yang jalan seorang diri.

"ya banat!," Fatimah memanggil-manggil budak perempuan itu.

"enti aizah aiskrim?," tanya Fatimah padanya.

" aiwah... hehe..," jawab budak perempuan itu dgn tersipu-sipu malu.

Fatimah memberi aiskrimnya pada budak perempuan tersebut.

Gembira sungguh si kecil itu menerima aiskrim cornetto yang sudah separuh di makan.

Fatimah tersenyum melihat telatahnya.

Teringat pula pada Ahmad, si anak bawab, tiga tahun lepas....

"Sorry, Ahmad".

#19

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّيْنِ حَنِيْفًا فِطْرَتَ اللهِ الَّتِيْ فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لاَ تَبْدِيْلَ لِخَلْقِ اللهِ ذَلِكَ الدَّيْنُ الْقَيِّمُ

وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لاَيَعْلَمُوْنَ

Hadapkanlah wajahmu dengan lurus pada agama (Allah),

(tetaplah atas) fitrah Allah yang telah menciptakan manusia menurut fitrah itu. Tidak ada perubahan atas fitrah Allah. (Itulah) agama yang lurus, tetapi kebanyakan manusia tidak mengetahui. (QS ar-Rum [30]: 30).

http://xeniagreekmuslimah.wordpress.com/2011/07/21/six-things-that-cause-someone-to-go-astray/

p/s: kita semua pasti akan kembali pada fitrahnya. atau mungkin, sendiri kene berusaha jika kita jauh dari fitrah ini?

mungkin, aku terlupa. lagi.

6.15 pagi

"mesir camna? aman?"'

"alhamdulillah. 25 januari tu, diorang buat protest mcm biasa je. and celebrate 1 year"

"oh, i see. comel la baby kawan hur tu."

"oh, baby kak nisa ke? comel sgt. kecik je."

"hur takde calon lagi ke?"

"ma ni, hur da cakap, hur tak fikir lagi. banyak tak study lagi ni. nanti2 la, bila dah grad nnt"

"study tu lainnnn,,,, ye la, hur belajarlah rajin2. jadi pakar nanti, boleh bawa mama jalan2 sekali"

"insyaAllah, kalau yang tu yg terbaik"

"tapi, abah mesti tak nak ikut. asik dgn kebun dia je."

"hahaha. takkan nak paksa abah kot."

8.15 pagi

" semua org, malam ni hantar ye nota2 tu semua. ah, hur, dah siap nota soalan tu?"

" alamak, hehe. serius lupa. takpe, malam ni siap insyaAllah. kita hantar nanti"

8.30 pagi

"everyone, the class is at cc."

"kenapa cc?"

"oh, gabung dgn budak2 unit lain."

8.50 pagi

"everyone, go back to our unit. our class is there."

" eh, tak jadi gabung dgn unit lain ke? buang masa la jalan2 macam ni"

11.10 pagi

"lapar tak? jom makan"

"makan mana?"

"mcD nak."

"Jom. korang tak nak ikut skali? bawak je la beg. terus pegi unit nanti"

11.45 pagi

"wah,, rajinnya buat homework arab."

"ye la, tau la dia takde homework. camne eh nak buat ayat ni?"

12.30 tengahari

"banyak dah baca untuk exam?"

"ntah la. target semalam habis kan semua ni. tapi, ni tak habis2 lagi"

1.50 petang

"common things, are common. so, what are the complications of ................"

"kita kan, still tak paham, apa maksud common things, are common? hehe"

2.35 petang

"cepat call doc. kita tak dapat tajuk kita ni. esok nk present"

"aku tak bawak phone. ok, aku cakap dengan dia, tapi guna phone hannah"

2.50 petang

"hur, nak pegi mana?"

"beli makanan jap."

2.55 petang

*walks towards pantai*

*sitting at the bench*

*termenung*

*termenung jauh*

"SubhanaAllah, cantiknya. pantai, pantai. you've never changed kan. still blue& green like you used to be. still the same old pantai that i fall with during my 1st year here. sorry, dah lama tak datang sini. so many things thing to do. i've just lost track of everything."

*tenung burung-burung laut terbang tinggi*

*angin sepoi2 bahasa, tudung ditiup-tiup lembut*

*pakcik2 pancing ikan di tepi*

*hon2 tramco berbunyi-bunyi. tapi, telinga ni, seakan-akan sudah lali"

*dengar bunyi adzan asar gami' ibrahim *

Dalam dunia ini, pantai alex yang mengingatkan ku, padaMu.

Maafkan hamba Mu ini. Yang selalu tenggelam dalam duniawi.

Renungan di pantai ini, buat aku sedar kembali.

إِلَّا أَن يَشَاء اللَّهُ وَاذْكُر رَّبَّكَ إِذَا نَسِيتَ وَقُلْ عَسَى أَن يَهْدِيَنِ رَبِّي لِأَقْرَبَ مِنْ هَذَا رَشَدًا

"kecuali (dgn mengatakan) InsyaAllah. Dan ingatlah kepada Tuhanmu apabila engkau lupa dan katakanlah, 'Mudah-mudahan Tuhanku akan memberiku petunjuk kepadaku agar aku lebih dekat (kebenarannya) daripada ini"

-Al-Kahf, ayat 24-

you, will always be my favourite spot. of all. :)

giving up :)

What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there's always cups in the sink?
What if I'm not what you think I am?

What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

What if our baby comes home after nine?
What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes?
Then I'll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

kene paham each words betul2, then, you'll get the message

p/s: mula2 ingtkan giving up is a negative thing. tapi bila dah paham, baru tau mksudnya giving up on bad things hihihihi

i don't mind.

Someone asked me before, if someone tell you something like "let's be apart temporarily" or "i think it'd be better if we just didn't talk for awhile", how would i react?

it's easy. just do it. they did asked for it. i have no problem with this. As long as they're happy, i'm good with anything......................

and probably deep in my heart, i'll say something like;

We are never going to talk again, but I hope you know you are forever in my thoughts and prayers.

*sigh*. biasalah. manusia dan dunia :)

C.H.A.N.G.E

Every cell in the human body regenerates on average, every 7 years. Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically, we are brand, new people. We may look the same, we probably do, but change isn't visible...not in most of us, but we all change, completely, forever.

When we say things like 'people don't change,' it drives scientists crazy because change is literally the only constant in science. Energy, matter, it's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural...the way we change to what things were than letting them be as they are. The way we change to old memories instead of forming new ones, the way we insist on believing, despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change, that's up to us. It can feel like death or a second chance at life if we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it. It can feel like pure adrenaline, like at any moment we can have another chance at life...like at any moment, we can be born all over again.

p/s : i miss these 2 girls above. May life for you is happy, now and Hereafter insyaAllah. :)

why am i the only one who is not changing? need to make one, pronto!

excess happiness

once, i told one of my best friends that i feel guilty, when i'm happy.

my usual daily days *min zaman yakni* are like a roller coaster ride. there's up and down, here and then. mama used to tell me, "don't be so stress out. do not burn yourself out. you don't have to carry the world on your shoulder. you're still young. you don't have to age so early".

probably, i did aged too early. i don't usually click in the normal conversations with my peers of same age are having. i had a friend telling me, my tastes in everything are just like her granny. and what i have in my mind, well, i don't dare to express it, most of the time. *really, you don't want to know*

and so, if i feel so happy, i felt guilty. as in, "why am i feeling so happy?". i believe, if i feel so happy right now, i might receive bad news then. from my previous past history, my brain planted this theory firmly.

and so, i did some emotion control every now and then.

an "emotional check", is what i called it. i set an emotion parameter. if it's somehow above or below the average, quickly, i do a deep inhalation, and do some other various stuffs and insyaAllah, eventually, it will be back to it's normal level.

This theory that i'm having is definitely not rigid at all. Obviously, as human beings, we can't really control our emotions all the time. Sometimes, your brain can't process all the information that gushes in all at once, and alas, you have an unplanned reaction. A pure reaction originates from your heart or most probably your "nafs", without your brain interfering with it.

I realised now, that whatever emotion one is having, whether it is excess or little, good or bad, one have no control most of the time. with time and experiences, we may train ourselves to have some control. but really, how many of us can really do this.

therefore, i concluded above all the theories from one simple stand. that everything comes from Allah, which means, everything originates from Him is a good thing. so is happiness, or even sadness. it's never wrong to feel happy, it's not bad feeling sad, it's ok to worry, and it's normal that sometimes, you feel angry.

acknowledge that each emotions comes for a reason. don't straight away react with the feeling that you are having. at least, stop and think, and analyze this emotion that you are having. the best way is to visualize the consequences of your every detail actions. how it will affects yourself, how it affects the people around you; your friends & family, whether it affects your studies, and definitely, will it affect your future? In case you have problems visualizing it, then remember this, will Allah like it if you react this way. will He bless your reaction towards your emotion?

i've learned that it's okay to feel happy. it's one of the nikmah in this world. you should enjoy this nikmah, so that you are motivated to aspire Jannah. if you enjoy being happy in this world, the happiness in Jannah is, MasyaAllah, greatly beyond your imagination. the key is to learn how to react with this excessive emotion that you are having. yes, bad news, may come along after happiness just as after the sun shines, rain comes along. however, remember that after it rains heavily, beautiful colourful rainbow comes along. mashaAllah, the thoughts of rainbow, flutters my heart so much, i probably end up with atrial fibrillation. :p

May allah always bless the feelings that i'm having, all the time :)

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“And that it is He (Allah) Who makes (whom He wills) laugh, and makes (whom He wills) weep”

- (Surah An-Najm 53:43)

azalea.

I know you'll leave me one fine day.

You're sick of me, is what you'll say;

dumb and numb, I'll send you on your way.

Ahead of you I'll scatter showers

great armfuls of azalea flowers

from Yongbyon mountains' springtime bowers.

And as you go, each step you make

lightly on the flowers that break

will echo as the leave you take.

I know you'll leave me one fine day.

You're sick of me, is what you'll say;

but I'll not weep then, come what may.

now, will you trample on my azaleas?

p/s; this is a korean literary heritage poetry.

#18

Truly in the heart there is a void that cannot be removed except with the company of Allah. And in it it there is sadness that cannot be removed except with the happiness of knowing Allah and being true to him and in it there is emptiness that cannot be filled except with the love for Him and by turning to Him and always remembering Him. And if a person were given all of the world and what is in it, it would not fill this emptiness.

- Ibn Qaiyyim al Jawziyyah

alhamdulillah ala kulli hal :)

Sol; Where is your soul?

"Ok, mana nak pergi lagi lepas ni?", kata irna.

"Hrmmm, jap eh. tengok map jap.", sambil terkapai-kapai membuka map dalam keadaan hujan yang masih renyai.

"Ok, kita dah cover area ni. sini pun dah. eh, sini pun dah. ni puerta de toledo kan. ha, betul la. wahh, tak sangka, in. satu malam kita boleh round satu kota Madrid", saya berkata.

Puerto De Toledo

Kami membuat keputusan untuk pulang sahaja ke kawasan hostel kami, Puerta De Sol, atau nama pendeknya "Sol" memandangkan malam pun sudah mula tua.

Perjalanan balik ke kawasan hostel amat mudah. Bandar Madrid dihubungkan melalui Metro, ala-ala LRT bawah tanah konon nya.

Keadaan di Puerto De Sol malam itu sangat meriah. Jalannya di penuhi orang ramai, walaupun dalam keadaan hujan.

"Eh, diorang buat apa ni? Jom tengok jap", kata irna sambil menunjuk ke arah sekumpulan manusia berkumpul di tengah dataran Sol.

Kelihatan seorang wanita, berdiri di atas "stage" kotak. Seorang lelaki tolong memegang payung bagi pihaknya. Seolah-olah, wanita tersebut sedang melakukan sebuah persembahan barangkali.

" I was a bad girl before", berkata wanita tersebut dalam bahasa Spanish. Lelaki yang memegang payung tersebut menterjemahkan kata-katanya dalam Bahasa Inggeris.

" I love to party. I went to Disco and night clubs all the time. My life was a mess. Alcohol & sex was my best friend, and it makes me happy each time i'm depressed. i even tried to commit suicide when i face a big problem.

But one day, i stop and think for a while. i need help. There must be someone out here, SOMEONE at all, who can help me. Help me to get out of this kind of life that i'm facing. I search everywhere for something, or someone to help me. but i seem to not find it anywhere. I want to change, but i don't know how.

That's when i realised, there is SOMETHING that can help me. Some force whom which is with me all these time, but i do not notice it. God. I realised, God can help me.

That's when i started to believe in God. I try to love God, and God heals me completely inside",

Sungguh panjang sajak wanita tersebut. Kata-katanya penuh emosi menusuk kalbu. Seolah-olah, saya boleh memahami apa yang wanita tersebut cuba maksudkan. Seakan-akan diri sesat dalam keseronokan dunia. Seronok, memang seronok. tapi, kenapa rasa seolah-olah ada yang tak kena.

Wanita tersebut mengakhiri sajaknya dengan berkata;

Remember that, no matter how lost you are, in the end you will always have god's love.

wanita Spanish, dan lelaki berambut kerinting di tepinya.

Sungguh. Memang wanita ini bukan Islam. Dia merupakan penganut agama Katholik, sama seperti rata-rata seluruh penduduk Madrid. Tetapi sedikit sebanyak, apa yang dikatakan olehnya, benar sekali.

Kadang-kadang kita sibuk mencari ketenangan, cuba mencari kebenaran, namun kita lupa. Jawapan kepada segala kekeliruan dan sumber ketenangan kita, memang ada depan mata. Cuma, kita yang buta mata, buta hati.

Tuhanmu lebih mengetahui apa yang ada dalam hatimu, jika kamu orang yang baik, maka sungguh, Dia Maha Pengampun kepada orang yang bertaubat ' (Al Isra' : 25)

Sesudah wanita itu mengakhiri persembahannya, seorang lelaki, berambut kerinting pula naik ke atas "stage" tersebut.

"Here's a drawing i drew;

lebih kurg macam ni lah lukisan nya.

"Of course it can't be compared to picasso's masterpiece. And if you can see here, i have an eraser. If i think, my drawing is a disaster, or if i did a mistake in my drawing, i can simply erase it.

Now, life is not like this drawing. You can't just screw a chapter of your life, and erase your mistakes.

But god can do this for you." katanya sambil membalikkan bahagian belakang kertas yang di conteng itu. bahagian belakang kertas ini, sangat putih dan bersih, tiada kesan contengan walaupun setitik pun.

Sambungnya lagi;

"As He's the saviour of humankind. this is how much God loves you. he can do THIS, for you"

Adalah memang kepercayaan agama mereka dari segi "purification of sins" dan yang sewaktu dengannya.

Tetapi Islam juga mengamalkan konsep yang sama, malah lebih indah lagi.

Memang benar, kita tak boleh nak turn back the time, and erase the past chapters of our lives mcm kita padam kesalahan dalam lukisan.

tapi apa yang kita boleh buat ialah, kita boleh start a new chapter in life. a clean, pure chapter of life. sama macam apa lelaki spanish ni buat, dia selak muka surat kertas tu yang bersih. kesalahan lalu seolah-olah pengajaran bagi kita. dan adanya contengan *macam novel Hlovate contengan perjalanan lah plak* dalam chapter hidup kita yang dulu tu, adalah untuk mengingatkan kita untuk tidak mengulangi kesilapan yang sama lagi.

bayangkan lah, kalau senang benar kita boleh padam semua kesalahan kita. buat salah, padam. salah je padam. senang bagi kita untuk ulangi benda yang sama. sebab kita tahu, nanti boleh padam juga, orang pun tak tau. boleh lah buat banyak kali kan, kesalahan yg sama tu.

Anggaplah, those ugly chapters of our past, is a reminder for us, to be better near future, insyaAllah.

Allah tetap sayang kita, walau banyak dosa yang kita lakukan dulu. Dia tetap bagi peluang, walaupun, kita dah abaikan dia dlm tempoh masa yang lama. Asalkan kita benar-benar bertaubat dan kembali pada-Nya, dan tidak mengulangi kesilapan yang lalu.

“Tuhanmu telah menetapkan atas diriNya kasih sayang, (yaitu) bahwasanya barangsiapa yang berbuat kejahatan di antara kamu lantaran kejahilan, kemudian ia bertaubat setelah mengerjakannya, dan mengadakan perbaikan, maka sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.” (Al An’aam: 54)

Malam itu, di tengah-tengah Puerto De Sol, dengan susasan hujan yang rintik-rintik membasahi bumi, saya berfikir sendirian;

Allah do loves us so much. Do we love Him, as much as He loves us?

Wallahualam.

"Jangan menilai seseorang itu berdasarkan sejarah hitamnya yang lalu..

kerana mungkin yang hitam itu adalah disebabkan kelekaannya pada masa yang lalu...

dan kerana mungkin yang hitam itulah yang membawanya kepada seorang yang hari INI...bukan lagi yang DAHULU KALA....

dan kerana hanya Allah sahaja yang layak meletakkan dirinya diMANA dia berada...bukan kita..."

- terjumpa dekat mana ntah, dah tak ingat. :)

thank you random spanish woman, and random spanish curly hair guy. you guys helped me to discover a meaning of something, that night. oh, and thanks for sharing your umbrella, with us. :) how i dua', that both of you will discover the beauty of Islam. Eternal serenity and the answers to all your confusion and questions, insyaAllah :)

#17

You knock, He opens. You attend, He welcomes. You ask, He gives. You sin, He tests, You repent, He forgives. You sin again. He forgives again. You cry, He listens. Everything you do, is about you; and everything He does, is about you. "So which of Allah’s favours will you deny?" [Quran Surah Al-Rahman 55:13]

subhanaAllah. is there anyone that can love you, more than He do?

p/s: thanks rom for this precious ayah! :)

never :)

spongy

untuk org yg ringtone dia spongebob.

dosa ke?

berdosa ke? ada perasaan camni?

*kontorversi la plak post kali ni :P*

are you, somehow, attached?

Once you let go of your attachment, what you love is given back to you—now in a purer, better form.

credits to; it's the thought that counts. hehe.

possibilities

Syurga di Bumi Alhambra

5/11/11, 6.35 am

Suasana di granada pada tengah hari itu sejuk sekali. Hujan yang pada mulanya rintik2 mula turun dgn lebatnya.

"did you bring an umbrella? It's raining heavily today"

"no. We didnt. We did not expect to rain this bad"

"it's ok. I'll lend you my umbrella. You can put your luggage inside our office. And my friend, adina will be your guide for today."

Masyarakat di sepanyol sangat menepati waktu. Hanya 2 minit lambat, tour yang dijadualkan sudah bermula. Nasib baik, mereka sanggup menunggu kami di sebuah tmpat tdk jauh dr situ.

"hi. Hola. My name is adina. I'll be your tour guide for today"

Tinggi lampai. Manis wajahnya. Sangat ramah. Di sebelahnya kelihatan sepasang suami isteri yang sudah agak lanjut umurnya. Dari norway katanya. Maka, kami berempat, 2 remaja malaysia, dan sepasang warga tua norway, menjadi rombongan tour guide adina pada hari itu.

Rombongan bermula dgn adina memberi sedikit penerangan ttg alhambra. Di bawanya kami ke sebuah tmpat yang menurutnya, di situlah view alhambra yg plg cntik.

Ternyata sejarah alhambra sgt hebat. Dari sejarah pembinaan monumen tersebut oleh kerajaan islam sehingga jatuhnya alhambra ke tangan jajahan takluk pihak katolik. Ratu isabella catholica, ratu pada waktu jajahan tersebut mengarahkan semua masjid dimusnahkan. Cuma sesetengah ruang bawah tanahnya dibiarkan untuk mengingatkan rakyatnya supaya jika ada masjid yang dilihat lagi pada masa akan dtang, musnahkan semua.

Kami hanya mendengar sahaja penjelasan adina. Pakcik makcik norway tmpk sgt berminat dgn sejarah alhambra. Pelbgai soalan dilemparkan oleh mereka ke adina. Kadang2, adina sendiri tdak pasti dgn jawapannya.

Kemudian, di bawanya kami ke sebuah kawasan gipsi. Di situ, guanya sudah diubah suai utk menjadi kawasan tmpt tinggal. Menurut adina, masyarakat muslim adalah yg pertama untuk menjadikan gua sbgi tmpt tinggal.

Tarian flamenco, sgt terkenal di kalangan gipsi.

"do you like flamenco?"

Kami cuma mengangguk-angguk, kononya pernah dgr ttg tarian flamenco.

Tetapi pasangan norway itu sgt bersemangat menjawab.

" yes. We really love flamenco. We've read about it from a book, and we come here to see it for ourselves"

"yes, most of people come here as they want to see wht they've read", jelas adina.

" sweetnya pasangan tu irna. Kan best kalau aku dapat cari pasangan hidup macam tu. Mcm best friend. We read lots of books together. Share the same interests. Deep thoughts and poetry. When we grow old, and our kids grew older, we travel the world to see the things that we only read in books before. Allah, bestnya."

Mcm biasa, angan2 dalam ruangan minda ini pasti akan berlegar- legar jauh dari realiti hidup.

Habis sahaja tour guide yg berlangsung kira2 2 jam, kami terus mencari sebuah restoran halal yang kami sudah 'aim' dari awal lagi.

"can we pray here?"

"no. I dont have a room here. But there's a mosque not far from here. Masjid taqwa. You can pray there".

Sesudah makan kebab dan nasi yang sangat sedap, terus kami mencari masjid yg dikatakan oleh pekerja restoran 'kebab king' itu utk menunaikan solat fardhu asar, dan jama' takhir zohor.

Pada awalnya, sesudah solat, kami ingin melihat sekitar alhambra, tetapi setelah berlegar- legar, kami mmbuat keputusan utk kembali ke masjid taqwa utk menunaikan solat mghrib dn mnnjamakkan solat isya'. Kami tidak punya banyak masa, kerana malam itu, kami perlu menaiki tren ke barcelona. bak kata irna " kalau dah selesai solat, meninggal dunia lepas ni pun xpe. Tanggungjawab dah selesai".

Sekali lagi, kami ke masjid taqwa. Kali ini, ada seorang pkcik arab di situ. Sambil menunggu azan maghrib, kami mmbaca bebrapa ayat suci alquran. Tenang sungguh suasana dalam masjid itu.

Beberapa anak muda lelaki, mmbaca ayat al-quran smbil mnunggu azan mghrib juga. Pakcik tersebut juga melakukan hal yg sama. MasyaAllah, dimana-mana pun seseorang muslim itu berada, indonesia mahupun

Mesir, bahkan sehingga ke sepanyol skali pun, rasa cinta yg mndalam terhadap Allah, tidak membezakan seorang muslim dgn muslim yg lain.

"in, aku rasa bersalah la"

"kenapa?"

"tadi aku jeles dgn pasangan norway tu. Nmpk best sgt smpi tua pun boleh rapat mcm tu. Share the same interests. Travel sama2. Tapi, mungkin.... Mungkin bukan yang tu yang aku nak dlm hidup ni"

"asal plak? Pelik2 je la ko ni"

"haha. Pemikiran aku kan slalu pelik2. Tak la. Mungkin dlm hidup ni ada bnda yang lebih dari tu. Syurga, contohnya."

Pengembaraan ke sepanyol mmg membuka luas mataku. Pada zahirnya, "travelling" itu mmg indah. SubhanaAllah, mmg indah sekali. Asalkan, bemusafir itu dgn tujuan yg bermanfaat, insyaAllah, tidak sia2 pengembaraan itu. Namun, apabila travel ni, ia seolah- olah memberi secebis gambaran bayangan syurga . Kalau lah travel in sgt indah dan best, syurga nnt apakan lagi.

Kalau lah ada pasangan sehidup semati yang kongsi segala minat dan bersama sehingga ke tua nnt itu indah, apa lah sgt nak dibandingkan dgn syurga nnt.

"irna, aku rasa, aku nak pasangan yang boleh bawak aku ke syurga la. Tak kesah la kalau dia tak sama minat ke, tak suka travel ke, asalkan kami boleh bersama hingga ke syurga. Pimpin aku hingga ke syurga. Takda apa lagi yang lebih indah dari nikmat2 di syurga nnt."

Pada zahirnya, mmg dunia indah. Dan memang tidak salah utk kita nikmati anugerah dan nikmat yg allah bagi. Semua utk menjadi tarbiyyah bagi diri kita. Kalau kita tidak pernah merasa apa2 nikmat dunia, macam mana kita nak berusaha untuk meraih nikmat syurga Allah nnt?

Bila dah rasa benda2 best, mesti nak lagi best kan. Apa lah yg lagi best dari syurga nnt.

Semoga allah memberkati pengembaraan kita semua dalam mengejar syurga Allah.

*boleh je orang yang sama minat di dunia pimpin kita hingga ke syurga jugak kan? :)*